On 2005-01-10 01:47:00, Reagan Youth wrote:
"Anyone that went against group morals was "dealt with" without talking back or defending themself."
that was ingrained in me in Straight, don't defend yourself, if someone is telling you something bad about yourself you suck it up. you are wrong, you are worthless, you have no place defending yourself while we tell you the "truth" about you. then there is the opposite, which is being reactionary to the slightest perceived insult. it can make things hard with other people.
i was quite paranoid around other people for a long time after Straight. i was totally focused on this idea that while they might be saying one thing, they could be thinking something different and bad about me, and who knew what their real intention was. this made me space out when talking to other people.
now I have no patience for anyone who thinks they can see my "character faults" and thinks they should tell me. and i hope i extend that same courtesy to other people. well it is my new philosophy on things, so i might mess up. but even with someone i known for a long time, i have recently decided that kind of thing is not what i want anymore and i am not interested in talking to them anymore because of their habit of thinking they should tell me my choices are wrong and my character is wrong. they even wrote some long email after i hung up on them about how sometimes people need to hear things about themselves they don't want to hear. i didn't even read the stupid email. i really don't think anyone "needs to hear" about (what other people see as) their faults. everyone has faults, but in general you either get along with someone despite their habits of personality or you don't. if you don't, you don't hang around with them.