I truly wish I could find some of the friends I made namely my own newcomers that came into my house. I think of them from time to time and hope that one day somehow I will find them. We all bonded and became very close and I wish them all well and a happy life.
I am not sure if I am allowed to use last names here in this forum but if I am let me know and I will name them...of course they may be married and have different last names.
I had friends from St Pete, Fort Pierce, Fort Myers, New Smyrna Beach, Daytona Beach. We had kept in touch up into about our late teens and then I got married young and lost touch with them.
Otherwise thank you for well wishes...I know we all have different views on how the seed helped or didn't help us but I thinks somehow we all need to be at peace with where we are today. It is the past...it made us in someways who we are...and this forum has made me think about how the seed effected my first marriage and it's possible demise...I married my high school sweetheart...I remember asking him while on my first date with him if he did drugs or drank...he did not. He was of all 16 years old unfortunately around the age of 19 he began to drink beer...he never ever did drugs but once he picked up the first beer he to this day has not been able to stop drinking. During the 9 years we were married I had major issues with this because of course with my conditioning and programming that drinking was wrong and no matter what I did or said ..my husband denied his addiction. In fact when my daughter was 18 months old and we were walking down the block together she saw a beer can and pointed to it and said "DA DA" even in her young age she connected a beer can to her daddy.This had devastated me. I of course have been a staunch advocator against doing drugs or drinking (I am not talking about an occasional glass of wine or beer etc) I am speaking of a daily 3-8 glasses of alcohol a day or illegal drug substance.
Both my kids are grown now and they are aware of my feelings...I had told them when they were little of my past in the seed...and they are aware of the possibility of alcoholism in themselves. So yes the seed did change me but in a way that I feel saved my kids from doing what I had done. And that I have to say I am thankful for.