I actually was on the girls side and there was plenty of sick shit that went on there as well. My post was not meant to be taken as we just let them walk - I specifically said I think it is prudent to continue in efforts to hold those in charge accountable but also to get on with our lives and not allow the hatred that place bred in us to continue to rule our lives. I feel for Scarstruck and the guys in general - it seemed like a lot of weird sexual stuff happened on that side. I remember Cameron dealing with the circle jerk or maybe it was Ann Petito who started all those people over - my memory is a little fuzzy on that particular one - I just remember I was on 1st phase and I honestly did not even know what a 'circle jerk' was until it became very clear in that rap. I understand the scars that Scarstruck talks about - I was sexually abused for 6 years as a child - I also know it consumed me with rage for a long time, just like Straight did, until I got that I really could not do a damn thing about either one except not let the pain rule my life and future anymore than it already had. Would I love to see my perp brought to justice? you bet, but he died 8 years ago, so why would I let a dead man who was a sick, sick person take up anymore of my time - I needed to get my soul back from him and Straight and doing that was the best thing I ever did for myself. I hope Scarstruck and everyone else is able to do that same thing. The place and the things that happened there were sheer, fucking hell - I was trying to say that his life is too valuable to waste one more second giving that place or the people he hated anymore time. Maybe it doesn't work for everyone like it has for me - I just hope everyone who had to go through that place will eventually be able to live in their present and not let that place fuck up anymore of their lives than it already has. If that is a bad wish or hope for fellow survivors, then I am wrong but I don't see how that is an off wish or hope for any of us who went through that place.
