I appreciate your replies and concerns. I am speaking for myself now as I have resigned myself to the fact that I will not be sharing my eternal resting place with whom I married. It's over, end of story...
I believe that parting now will be a complicated procedure for my children, but they are older and they will be OK. I am concerned and will participate in their support to the best of my ability at least until my youngest child becomes an adult. As they all progress into adulthood, I hope they don't X me out of their lives. I will surely be "leaving my light on" for them.
I also will note now that I do not plan to discuss this over the message boards anymore. Any concerned parties should use a private email or phone call to discuss this further. Again, thank you for your support,
William Earnshaw, Sr. a.k.a. METALGOD8