I was fifteen years old and had been on the street for 2 years. You're damned right I had no honor or personal integrity. I had no idea what the concepts were. Straight would have been a great place to teach me these things, but alas, I digress...
I was thrown in an environment of intense peer pressure, of which most succumb. Kudos for not. You're a brave person.
There is a gray area, however, there always is. Everyone of us kept our integrity and true selves somewhere hidden. We all had our private forms of rebellion.
For me, it was never allowing myself to become violent to others no matter how mad or hurt I was. I do not beleive in hurting others and I never intentionally did. As a misbehaver, I simply turned into an eel when I was angry. How's that for the high road?
I briefly tried to work the program and move on off first phase. This was a cummulutive total of 2 months out of the 22 months I was in there. Anytime I got off first phase, fear gripped me unitl I ran away. I couldn't make the program work for me like so many around me could. Sure I yelled at people, desperately trying to believe I meant it and they deserved it, but everyone knew I was a faker. For those I traumatized, the guilt still haunts me.
But when you're scared and alone and really do want some kind of help, going along with the group is a form of survival. Beats being stood up in front of 200 people, half of them female and have someone tell everyone that you're like a crab louse, or that you masturbate, or that you're a pervert, etc.
Humiliation may be one of the most effective brainwashing techniques. Look at abu ghraib prison.