Talk away. It's fine. I finally got the nerve up to start yelling. I would pretned to be pissed off. This was when I thought, "ok, I'm gonna make myself do this. Again, I wanted help. I was crazy. Yes, to get out also, but it was now almost 2 years. I had created a little familiar institutional environment for myself, but I wanted a change. So I would confront. I found I had to just stop thinking about what I was saying, kinda like inprov in theatre. And just say it as loud as possible. But the staff knew I didn't know what I was doing. They would often sit me down in mid-rant. I was jelly the whole time in there, everyone knew this wasn't me.
But you bring up something that I have mentioned before. These evil, twisted, monstrous guys that were screaming at me, were children also. In fact, I bet many had been screamed at in the beginning. (I'm finding out on fornits' that they had). So how can I be angry? I mean I am, but I also remember that they were victims, too. This is a tough concept for many on this forum, so I'll not press it.
And yes. To answere your original question, we are just weird.