no, she was sensitive to it, very much. she is a trained, licensed therapist, our church doesn't do it, so they recommended this person. she was very nice and supportive when i was talking, but i just remember how we couldn't tell our parents in our letters home how it really was, and how they brainwashed our parents, and everytime i try to bring it up to them, they get angry and say it wasn't as bad as i think it was. bullshit! i know what i saw there, i know what i went through, i know the damage in me because of it. i just don't know how to express it, other than on this board. i know i can say anything here, and people will understand. but, how can i talk about it with anybody who doesn't understand?
and my FI is very supportive about it. he knows, even though i haven't really told him. every once in a while, we will smoke, and then a few times i just started rambling on about how terrible it was, and some of the stuff the counselors were saying to us, etc. and he was so shocked! i know he has a hard time dealing with it, like he wants to help me but doesn't know how, and i don't know what he can do other than give me a hug when i'm sad. rambling again over here!
thanks for reading.