Interesting how similar the story lines are.
Wilderness, RTC 'failed' and still looking for another program. And this woman's a therapist.
http://www.strugglingteens.com/cgi-bin/ ... 2;t=00087824 Nov 2004
Well..... after a wilderness and a TBS...daughter isn't going to school, not taking meds regularly, and generally back to her old tricks....lying, sexually acting out, failing,..all the old borderline tendency issues.... We have done all we know to do....any suggestions? Time is running out as she will be 18 in February.
15 June 2003
Our daughter is in a wilderness program in the far northern US. She is beginning to "get it" according to her therapist and by her letters home.Her therapist believes she is alot less pathological,than she originally thought, ("incomplete personality), but of course still needs assistance. Once she comes home in 4 weeks if she isn't successful even with alot of theraputic support....it has been suggested she go to a theraputic boarding school. Any thoughts or anyone with experience with this they are willing to share?
16 June
My daughter is in her 4th week at New Horizons. We are very pleased so far....anyone had experience with this program...results,etc.?
28 June
I am geting very concerned whether we can provide the structure for our daughter coming out of New Horizons in 2 weeks. anyone have experience with Aldern Academy in SC, Carolina Springs in NC or Hidden Lakes in GA? We are also looking a t a ranch setting in Tennessee...the Westmorlands? XX has no drug or alchohol use. The latest psychological testing is showing big time borderline tendencies. I know she is 16 an can grow out of alot of this. But my experience with these kids is they live life hard!
5 July
Per the wilderness therapist, we have my daughter in a small private hs for the fall, she will ride with me each way as I am a guidance counselor at a middle school nearby. Two days a week she has therapy after school, another 2 days she will work at a horse ranch. Family night is the other night during the work week. We have all privldeges on a "have to earn it back" basis and no friends for the immediate future...no phone, computer etc.Her Dad recently got a divorce so she can again, after many years spend every other weekend with him. He will inforce our rules there as well.
7 July
Our daughter is due home Friday...got a report from her Wilderness Program today that she had finally admitted to a romanitc relationship with another girl, after lying originally. She said it was all for attention. The girl has left and she had been our daughter's best friend while she was there.
The therrapist is telling us to have a TBS lined up in case her trial at home doesn't work.
We don't know what to believe at this point...our daughter may have used this girl like she had boys ...or she might have just been experimenting...she has told me before she might have "feelings" toward girls...and she lies so much, we just don't know. We knew wilderness wasn't a cure all...but we are discouraged.
29 Mar 2004
Our daughter almost did it this time...took over 100 Tylenol and chased it with alcohol. They saved her after 1 day in the ER, 2 in ICU and one in pediatrics. She is in a short term psychiatric center and we need more assistance. She has a personality disorder as well as depression and adhd, inattentive type.
13 April
Well..it is after the fact...but anyone with experience with LaAmastad in Maitland, Florida?
18 April
When I went to her RTC yesterday...she looked so good...acted so "ok"....I feel such a sense of loss...
19 April
I feel blessed that XX survived her suicide attempt and is working on her issues at the RTC. I am also thankful I have her in my life, "normal" or not...it's just heartbreaking when I see her and the guilt I feel for not recognizing what she was masking over the last 8 months is a big issue for me right now. She slipped it past us all...but as a therpaist and mother...I feel I should have seen it!
2 May
As many of you know I am a therpist, in addition to beeing XX's mom, (daughter, age 17 at RTC). Perhaps that is clouding my judgemenet...again!!!!
The therapist at the RTC is recommmending we let our daughter, (with borderline tendencies) make her own choices as far as friends go, boys, etc....and let the chips fall where they may for XX to deal with. Granted...that all sounds good in theory...but she is like a moth to a flame still at this point....calling old boyfriends who treated her badly, (or whom she used)....and if she can't get one on the phone keeps calling old boys in her life until she gets one on the phone...even though they have moved on or even asked her to go away, due to her latest "drama". Had a grea visit with her on pas yesterday, shopped til we dropped...had good talks...only to find out at the end that she still has her communication network with her old friends at home through letters to one of her "ok" friends.... boy was I steemed.... I feel like an idiot again...that I was buying the "changes" we had seen and what my daughter was saying.....
AS I said... I understand the concepts theraputically....but when she comes home I feel like we are handing her a loaded gun..... she is being ery "logical" athe RTC... telling then exactly what they want to hear, (she knows all too well).... she is bright but incredibly immature, naive and impulsive.
So... am I being too controlling, co dependent, just don't want to "let go"....or am I just still too **** scared after her suicde attempt. All of your imput will be appreciated, as always.
3 May
I've got it...trying to protect her I almost killed her and made her dependent and weak... hopefully it is not too late for her to learn the skills she needs and use them with her friends.
6 May
Still I have to say again...for me...it deepens the guilt me that I can help others and not XX. I understand that I am Mom here and that's all I should be....but it still seem to be harder because I am a counselor. I mean we feel enough guilt as parents anyway when our kids have problems. Also at times I feel it has kept her from getting the help she needs as professionals would say, "well she has so much support at home"....her dad and I are both therapists and her stepdad is a teacher who works with kids a lot also. In addition, XX has been seeing a psychitrist since age 10 and counselors from time to time also.....in general sometimes I feel my profession has failed her as well...which makes me feel even worse...if that makes sense. I am working on it all...it really needs to be about XX at this point and I am trying to let go in many way...
12 May
The RTC staff feels that XX needs to make her own decisions and will see through the bad relationships without my "protecting her" and cutting them out of her life as I have done in the past. She may get her feelings hurt....but they feel she can handle it and will not rebel against me as has also been her history. The therapist also feels the tremendous guilt she feels lying and sneaking won't be there.
She is also VERY open and honest about her feelings towards these people now and talking to us about them...the counselor doesn't want to drive her back "underground" where she was before...lying, sneaking etc....
The whole idea as I understand it is to keep the communication open at all costs...so she doesn't "go away" again emotionally into the dark hole of depression and deception that led to her suicide atttempt. Also, to be honest the strict rules and telling her who to see and what to do certainly hasn't worked over the years, (not to mention it is exhausting)... XX is stronger than I have given her credit for and can handle the "bumps and bruises" of adolescence that I have tried to run interference for.....I have to let her know I trust her to choose and decide....I have made her dependent and weak....for her age....now have to let her grow up.
4 June
After all we have been through my husband and I are separating.
My daughter is home from TBS and doing pretty well, but this past two years appear to be taking it's toll now.
My husband never realized he was "part of the problem"...it was all my daughter....she has to be top priority now....
24 Nov
Well.....after a wilderness and a TBS...daughter isn't going to school, not taking meds regularly, and generally back to her old tricks....lying, sexually acting out, failing,..all the old borderline tendency issues....
We have done all we know to do....any suggestions? Time is running out as she will be 18 in February.
25 Nov
My daughter is soon to be 18...failing her senior year, not wanting to go to school....beautiful, bright and troubled....won't take meds regualrly.. denies depression, has borderline tendencies... ...anyone know of programs for kids of this type?