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DKM84:
I was in from 71 til 75 / 76
anybody start in andrews or early on 84?
who do you remember

A friend in FL:
Hi there, First I want to say that I am so sorry for the deep pain that so many of you have experienced, and are still feeling all these many years later. I am very grateful to have survived the 5+ months on 84 unscathed. I went into the program in the fall of '74. My sisters were the first in our family to go. The oldest was at the Tropical site and moved. I was 14 at the time when I entered the program. I was desperate for attention and to have a sense of belonging somewhere -anywhere. I may have smoked pot all of three times up to that point but made my parents beleive that my drug use was much worse. I went for an intake earlier in the summer and was turned away.  So, three months later I tried again. This time one of my sisters dressed me for the part. I went in "costume" with a trumped-up bad attitude and made the grade. (Do you remember the female character in the movie The Breakfast Club? The one who had nothing better to do than go to detention all day on a Saturday?)Pathetic huh?
However,when I graduated, I was left with the gift of several lifelong friends and a renewed relationship with God. I wish I could say that they too were not damaged by the experience. I cannot. My closest friend suffered tremendously for years. The others have suffered as well. What does give me comfort is that even a program like the Seed can be used by God to develop us (including all of you) into people of compassion, and love. Who knows better how to comfort, than those who have needed and received comfort?  Who knows better how to mend broken hearts than one who's heart has been mended. If yours has not, reflect on your experience and turn the hurt and pain over to the one who knows what it is like to be ridiculed publicly, to be beaten and abused and broken.  He loves you and is in the healing business.
A friend

Anonymous:
you were pathetic then, and you're still pathetic...

MommaDebi:
I strongly feel that my life would have been much healthier if I had never experienced the "comfort" inherent in the "Seed".

I learned valuable lessons while there:
1) don't trust people that "love me"
2) keep feelings hidden as then they can not be used against me
3) be a "loner", i certainly did not graduate with a multitude of friends to support me and my choices in life. (yes I did graduate...if it means anything; to me it just means that i learned to play the game and survive it)
4) my God  did not want me to grow from these types of experiences...

GregFL:
Welcome to the forum. You are not the first I have heard of that longed to be in the program. In fact, if you look at the lakewood thread with the school newspaper, one of the "druggies" interviewed said that he wouldn't mind going there. I remember kids coming in that volunteered and they seemed to get it pretty easy.

Cults the world over have no trouble finding volunteers. Sometimes people get in and out relatively unscathed. I hear what you are saying.

I also agree with your assessment that troubled lives can be used for good.

Thank you for your post. We look forward to your continued participation here. How about starting a thread and telling us about an event that happened to you while at the Seed, and get those friends to post!!!

GregFL



[ This Message was edited by: GregFL on 2002-09-03 16:42 ]

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