I recall all of the taboos, then the talent show!! As mentioned in another thread, "Holy Shit now what do I think?"
Although I must have been sufficiently out of the gutter to be allowed to be able to be around the girls apartments while working on their cars, unsupervised. Which was a mixed blessing, back to the gutter!
The whole "condom in the back of Arts car" event just seemed to twist the knife.
The football games were disturbing to me on several levels - that could probably be a thread to itself, but I managed to draw the "watch the house" duty in my later days, which probably was best for all concerned.
I spent some time talking to a seed girl at work and that got back to me via the staff in a not pleasant way, reinforcing the taboo. I left before the repercussions of that could fully manifest;
On the outside, I was pretty clueless how to deal with the whole dating thing, sex etc. made a few bad choices, I wasn't in high school any more. I got involved with a rape survivor, who had a lot of fear and other issues - underneath it all a sweetheart, which gave me another set of issues to deal with (guilt for being male).
Then I made the whole thing worse by running off to college at 25. I got over the gutter/guilt connection pretty soon therafter - I also worked with a rape survivor group at college.
I met my wife at a beer and sandwich place in school
When I was invited to a reunion/dinner/talent show/open meeting event years later (I forget the whole title of the thing) it seemed that half the group was married - (I had my soon to be wife with me - an outsider, I still don't know how that happened). That was pretty surreal!
I left before the rash of marriages, I guess one had happend before that, but it seemed a lone data point.
it seems I am rambling so I will quit and post this.
JG
