i p.m.ed damon.....never heard back from him...you're right squirrel.....the others are way more interesting subjects to deal with.i was just blowing off steam and anger that i had built up over the years.i have deanie boys phone number....i know where miller lives.the only thing standing in my way is this,:i'll never get my chance at them in front of you guys.....confronting them is one thing....but in front of the "whole straight group"? thats satisfaction!damon was very ridiculous in his treatment of me....so was the rest of "dean's boys"....they know it too.....i never gave them any real reasons for humping me,they listened to thier superiors and promtly stuck a john holm's salami up my ass....dean and sylvia koulker didn't really DO the damage or smearing,just like hitler and eva braun,they ordered it and watched thier minions do thier bullshit on me.....what was normal bullshit in straight,in group,was done to me and unlike in group,where i could redeem myself a little and move on,i was cast out of everything entirly!i never got to stand up for myself or at least have my say,they just threw me away like a piece of toilet paper and flushed me down......for 20 years,they had this belief that what they did to me,ruining my life even more than straight had already done,was ok....good for the group etc etc.....i just called them on it.to me,many of them don't want to think that maybe,just maybe,they were really really WRONG for what they did to me!.....am i still angry? yes i am!i just found out the truth about that time period 3 months ago!i was led to believe something else.in those 20 years,i convinced myself that it was all my fault....when i found out that it was a carfully excecuted manipulation
plan,at the hands of a few ppl,i was blown away.i'm glad i know,but i have to be honest,it was easier to believe what i thought was the truth!it was easier because i had already put that time period behind me the best i could.when i first found out what really happened,i was happy
because deep down i always knew it was bullshit,but as time went by,i found myself full of rage!rage because of how my family treated me after that episode in my life.rage for the road they manipulated my life down. that binky character said i need to take responsibilty for what happened to me up there....how many times did we all witness straight manipulate our lives unwittingly? way to many times for me to think about.after brainwashing me into believing i needed a support group and good straight "friends",they smeared my name and banished me from everything....took it all away and replaced it with bullshit.instead of a temporary consequence i could eventually earn my way back into,it was a permanent thing.i was blackballed and told if i ever stepped foot on thier property again they would have me arrested!
after 6 years of involvement in that place,in 5 fucking weeks,5 weeks!i was banished.....i never knew the reasons why till 3 months ago.i'm ok now.....not as angry as i was just even a month ago.i took an absense of leave from the fornits and other sites so i could get a grip on myself.i was jumping ppl's shit that didn't deserve it.TO THOSE I DID THAT TO,I"M VERY SORRY! i hope you can
see your way to forgive me....well,i have to go..sorry this post was long......hippie