Thank you Shanlea, I am at the point where I am torn. In fact, there are people whom I know that have already found me through a different site. I have yet to contact any of them back but am in process of composing some emails to some of you. I feel funny saying that I'm not "pro-CEDU", which I guess I clearly am...It's just the idea that we really could change the whole world...I know it's true but they set me back from a leadership perspective. I just know that when I learn to use this terrible gift that I was so (un)lucky to receive, with what I have learned for MYSELF, that I will finally be what I want, but for now it is identifying the different things that is proving difficult for me. Gotta lot I wanna post so 'ats all for now.