scrubbing pans, obsessive cleaning, chopping wood, shoveling shit, cleaning trails, etc... are not what i would consider learning vocations. these are activities that any idiot with half of a brain can do. as for running your feelings and the rest of that emotional growth bullshit, none of that has any value in the real world. business is about sales and profit, period. nobody gives a shit about your feelings! why, because feelings are like assholes, everyone has them! mine are no more important than yours.
i can't remeber a time in my life when i felt
more pain, despair, and isolation than my time at cedu. the one thing i learned from the experience was how to survive, depend on, and think for myself. i didn't learn that at cedu, i learned that in the 3 and 1/2 months that i spent living on the streets, and hiding from the cops after i finally split from that hellhole. out there i saw people murdered, i saw people killing themselves (crackheads and junkies), i saw cops beating people within an inch of their lives for sleeping on the wrong street corner. i saw people beating the shit out of each other over the smallest morsal of food. I never felt more fear in my life. still i would've spent an eternity living that life, than spend one more day at cedu.
i don't pride myself for surviving my time at cedu, but i take great pride in the strength i found to pull myself out of there. those streets are where i learned the greatest lessons of my life, and that's where i found the tools to make it in this world!