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i want your stories
Anonymous:
Wow. I must say you were determined! HOw did you pull your life back together? Did you ever go back to school? Did you eventually go home? Did your street experience help you in any way? I just turned 17 when I went; 6 months later I split. If I were younger, I might have been sent back. It's a tough thing being so young with no rights in that crazy bin.
OK: I'm curious about why people went? Did you need intervention or would you have grown out of whatever your parents sent you there for... CEDU sucks, in a perfect world, what would have been helpful to you?
Anonymous:
the previous posting was shanlea by the way
Son Of Serbia:
yes i did eventually go home, patched things up with my parents, and went back to highschool. my senior year i pulled straight A's, and i went on to college where i earned my bachelors degree in film/video with a minor in communications. my television career never happened, and i ended up going back to school part time and i earned my associates degree in construction management. i'm now a general contractor (i went onto business with my father), and i make a decent living at it. even though life turned out okay for me, i did a lot of crazy shit for years after cedu, lots of drugs, fighting, lots criminal shit, not to mention i was a total pig who fucked anything that touched him. eventually i settled down, got married, and my wife gave birth to our 1st son this past april. looking back now i'm amazed that i'm not dead, in jail, or suffering from an std right now. i know that god was looking out for me.
why did i get sent to cedu? basically i was a young, stupid kid, who thought he knew everything, and wouldn't listen to anyone. my body had grown much faster than my mind did (at 14 i was already 6'-1"), when i realized that my parents couldn't bully me around anymore (my dad was the physical type), i decided i could do whatever i wanted. i skipped school, smoked pot, started having sex, hung out with gang bangers,i was openly defiant, i didn't even try to hide what i was doing. i was sent to cedu because no one could control me.
the one thing i learned from the cedu experience is that i can't just do anything i want, some where down the line i would have to pay for it. after cedu, i got my head out of my ass and decided i wanted to be somebody, and the only way to be someone is to have goals and work towards them, and not just fuck off all of the time expecting good things to come to me. if you want something out of life, then you have to make it happen.
was cedu the only way for me to realize that? no i don't believe so. i think eventually i would have grown up and come to my senses, or have had the sense knocked into me. perhaps my experiences from cedu helped speed the process up a bit, being on the streets makes you grow up pretty fast, but i firmly believe that i would have made it okay the same, with or without cedu.
Anonymous:
--- Quote ---On 2004-07-13 08:41:00, SON OF SERBIA wrote:
"are you saying that you stayed at cedu intentionally? isn't that a bit sadistic?
i mean here you have your life that they don't
let you live, removed from you is free will,independent thought, and everything that ever mattered to you, in essence your life is snuffed out, it's like being in a coma. don't get me wrong, it took me 1 year and 7 months before i finally got out (5 previous escape attempts, making it 6 total), but my goal always remained to get the fuck out of there. my independent spirit, sense of self preservation, and my fundumental right to something better demanded it. to me staying at cedu was like committing suicide day after day.
how could any of us deny ourselve, what by all rights is ours, and only ours; the right to choose
who we are?
i understand that fear is a real motivator, and if someone truly feared for their life, then i see why they would stay at cedu, but honestly, i never felt that vibe. did you feel that way? what made you stay?
for me getting out once and for all was the only
option, it was the only way i would truly be alive, i knew that with every fiber of my being.
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no, i think it would've been sadistic for me to leave....
when i hit threshold, i knew i was strong enough to make it through the bullshit. i didn't, on the other hand, at 12, 13, or 14, know what the fuck to expect from living on the streets in california, where i knew nobody. this one girl mentioned to me that we could become prostitutes and change our appearances... i wasn't too hot on that idea.
i'm confused, you say that cedu wouldn't let you think independently, yet you're saying you did... i realized that they didn't want me to make judgements, but that was of my nature, so i had to. i can't not think for myself; that's where my strength came in. whenever i considered running away, the cons outweighed the pros.. i knew that i would be ok after cedu one way, but the other way, i couldn't be sure of anything. thus, i stayed at cedu until they virtually kicked me out.
i don't regret a thing... i've learned quite a bit along the path i've chosen.
mikehunt:
oops, i thought i was logged in.
bryan, i believe in universal balance (yin and yang... in cedu language: the pendulum), love (cedu tried to teach this, but they contradicted themselves... teach by example, duh) and taking control over your body/mind (accountability for our own actions and responses. for me, this is free will... you have to take on all of your societal programming.) oh yeh, and i believe that your "inner child" is the divinity within yourself. you can get in touch with that through meditation. if you believe that "god" is within you, you believe in an "inner child", even though that term may make you feel a bit troubled.
some of their morals, i agree with. i DO NOT agree with their standardized methods or the theories backing them.
i learned a lot through observation at cedu as well... [ This Message was edited by: mikehunt on 2004-07-14 18:58 ]
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