I have something to say about this "NAILZ" guys last post & Jordons...I am not taking anyones sides.....
I just want to say something I thought of, after reading....BOTH sides....
I remember,..
WHen I was in 7 it was like about 1994?? ish...to 96? 12 /96 ish I m not sure..
Anyways....Jordon, was a new resident afteer I had been there about 1 yr or so...
I remember..Iris and Pearl, telling me Elan used to be worse...
I remember...Tanya Merritt, talking about how Elanies, were aloud to smoke ciggaretts and had more freedom...But shit started to get out of hand, little by little, and more structure was slapped on, each time....
I believe, if all this was going on, back in the day, Elanies, were aloud to get away with more shit...
There was probably TONS OF 1 on 1's..Sex on the post maybe even???
Alittle bit of pot smoking here & there and alot of other shit...Going down...
This NAILZs guy, may have been subdued to more of the "Real kind of shit" that goes on in secondary type of homes than when we were at ELan...
But also-
EVEN THOUGH WHEN WE WERE AT ELAN...it was more laid back...
it at OUR time, was hard...for us...
well...I remember.. Ithink back...
I hate elan...but mostly because, I wasn't ready for that kind of place...
To make a long story short-
I lied in my guilt letter..
Isaid things happened to me or I did things that I never did! To make it bad, to make the staff & residents, get off my back....
I was at Elan because,
-I came from a sheltered family
-I wanted more, & I wanted to be able to do what my school-mates were doing at age 15-17 so I ran away from home
-moved in with LOW LIFE families & then got sucked in to their behaviors
-I never was that person, I faked it
-I ended up, doing & behaving as they did to be "COOL" what I thought...
-In this process, I was sent to Elan.
-MY MISTAKE...
I learned ALOT...
honestly....
I dont know where I would be now???
Someone here...an anon poster wrote,
Maybe Elan was some kind of HOLDING CELL??? to protect us in life?
SOme planned destiny? to protect us?
WHO KNOWS??
IF I PUSH THROUGH all my anger....
Elan, taught me alot.
And fucked me up alot...
But, we dont just GET SENT to Elan for fun..we provoked it...
So anyways,,,my point is..
everyone gets something different out of everything...it depends on their upbringing & background...
Someone raised in poverty appreciates nice things better than someone who grew up in luxury...
you know what i forgot my point, its hard to write about something i knew i had the thought i my head, while watching the movie "six feet under" for the first time...
sorry.,.
hope you guys got SOME kind of POINT out of what I was getting at???