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JamesAlbert:
I have a room reserved now Ok, I took the plunge and reserved a room for the two nights of the conference. My significant other has agreed to provide the frequent flyer miles to get me there so I am going. I have requested registration info as well.


Anyone interested in sharing my room may email me directly at :


former_emp@hotmail.com


The hotel would like me to limit the occupancy to 3 adults, there is one queen bed and a rollaway too.


reiterating my fair notice:


I am a pan-sexual poly-fidelitous deadhead.

I am currently partnered to a gay man, he will not be attending.

I hate straight. Straight hates me too. Really they do.

I was a staff trainee before leaving as a SWACA for the second time.

I saw, was a victim of, and did things that were not pretty, if you think you may hold a grudge against me, we might not need to share a room.

I was attacked and beaten up by a former primary counselee so this is a big leap of trust for me to offer, as I am terrified of being beaten again for what I did.


Today truly is the first day of the rest of my life.


Thanks

James

KimberlyNJ:
Re: I have a room reserved now WOW!  Thank you sooooo much for posting!  I am completely and amazingly happy and thank ful that you took the guts to post.  We all did things we are ashamed of, we all did them because we were made to, not always because we enjoyed it either!  Granted some people had a lot of anger and did a lot of things spitefully, I'm sure i probably did also...but think of WHY we did these things!  Everyone knows what happens if you don't do what you're told!  Nobody can really blame each other for doing these sorts of things.  Yet there are some that do, as you upsettingly found out.  If I could apologize FOR theose guys i would.

Anyhow...I'm babbling...Welcome to the message board...can't wait to meet you at the conference.

:-)

JamesAlbert:
SO far off topic it cant be explained After what I have read today, I gladly accept responsibility for my actions.

I have to, if I am to ever move on from the guilt and self hatred I have for doing them.

Your ramblings sound like the gospel to me.


I am most disturbed to find that it may still be happening, that there are still kids in plastic chairs, getting motivated. Getting motivated made me a cripple.

Getting motivated left me with spinal problems that will eventually lead to surgery, most likely not until I turn 45, so I get to live in pain for at least ten more years thanks to gettting motivated.


I am glad to have found this place, I had really never thought that I would find any way to gain this release, and validate my own experiences. Somehow they were like a dream until I started reading today. Then stuff started flying back at me, I was trembling often and I still am. Earlier when I thought about Dunking Ben A. 's head in the toilet, adn the whole bathroom scene I felt that same old feeling in the pit of my stomach that straight tought me to feel, overpowering anxiety, with a double guilt chaser on a set of paranoid rocks.


They didnt get me off drugs, they just tought me how to abuse endorphines and to enjoy masochisim.


James Albert Lloyd

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