Concerning Jennifer Loar,
During my incarceration at Straight, Jennifer was downright mean to me and I could get specific as I remember it like yesterday. But I proclaim to all of you, and especially Jennifer, that I have 100% closure with her and forgive her fully. In fact, its people like Jennifer that is precisely the reason I came to this site. In fact, I pray for her (in a way as i dont' believe in God) that she is able to forgive herself and live a life free from the haunting of Straight, the same thing I am searching for. If I didn't provide that peace of mind for her, and myself, then I'm the same asshole I was while in Straight, when my character was at its worst in terms of integrality, kindness, and on down the list. Jennifer, you deserve to live a life without being terrorized by your memories of Straight, as do I and I hope that we have both taken a step in that direction which I think we have. God Bless you.
Concerning Steven Brooks,
Most hardened criminals are still nice to their family and friends, its the rest of society that they don't have a problem fucking over and that?s why we lock them away. We don't need to go out of our way to have him locked up, he is doing that just fine on his own. He is exactly the kind of person prisons were built for and precisely the person that Anne Petito, Lori Means, Amy Cameron, Ms. Reily promptly promoted as representing a senior staff member for his cruelty and disregard for his fellow man, a perfect Straight peer staff. I'll allow room in my heart for his potential to change into a decent human being but I don't foresee that happening nor do I see that happening with the likes of Executive staff however it would be highly meaningful for me if they did and I will do everything I can to facilitate that change.
I want the nightmare to end. I want it to end for me, I want it to end for those of you who are reading this message, and I even want the nightmare and the insanity to end for those I hate most, the executive staff, Miller Newton, and the Semblers for they only spread cruelty and hate and my goal is to stop the abuse and stop feeding the hate that?s haunting me for far to long.
~John