ok well as you alreqdy iknow I Was a student at the Whitmore, but now i am back home.
Subliminals were a way of starting off our day positively: WITH positive affirmations. We listened to them usually from 5 to 5:30 in the morning or even sometimes 4 to 4: 30 whch is i think what is on their schedule now according to the web site :wink:
It's funny u asked me the question because I was in charge of making sure that people had their subs on in the mornings { a.k.a. subliminal monitor} I arrived at the Whitmore June 18th and only two months after i was given the job of subliminal monitoring in the mornings. So i was sub. monitor for about 3 months.....and got alot out of it but also thought it was a little too brainwashing. It was always a must do and was required by all thre kids in the mornings if they wanted to go into town or do any of the following days or weeks spcial events. Now i understand that that was a way of discipline and just something we simply had to do to be able to do things with the group like movie, mall, etc... and i respected that but some things were jus takena little to seriously like subliminals.
I had to wake up extra early to do my hygiene and go through all three levels of the mansion to see if people had them on right at the time they were told by cheryl to be on, like i said,,,,,,, strictly to schedule.
When Cheryl asked me to give her daily reports,{ but not every day did she ask me}, i told her who had their subs on time and who didn't. The kids who didn't had to provide her with an explanation of why and that sounds normal to me because when we chose to act against the group or disagreed, like me, on some things in the group snd were confronted it was ALWAYS turned into this huge BIG deal cause one person thought differently than the rest of the group.
When kids there went against the rules and chose not to do what all the others were doing in the sch4dule they were punished...by either having group on them, getting v erbally attacked or just plain old reemed on simply cause they didn't believe in the subliinal messages._ and we all have our rights and diferent beliefs.
SOme kids there would say that they didn't get anything out of subliminals and to tell u the truth being subliminal monitor , people would always expect me too honor the idea of suliminals, but really i didn't. I REALLY didn't. However, even though they are a 45 minute recording on a computer streaming throught he speakers of ur computer at the crack of dawn, know that they are good r4cordings to listen to. But to listen to them every morningl......... had to be brain washing...atleast i felt it was for me.
For example in subliminal sayings in the morning....." I feel loving, I choose to be loving, I AM loving." I feel trustworthy, i choose to be trustworthy , I Am trustworthy." The whole recordings it is basically.......I AM, I CHOOSE , I FEEL __________ < and that blank is filled in with any positive charqcteristic SOMETHINg always telling you what you were [ AND MAYBE WEREN'T at that time in ur life] BUT THE WHOLE POINT OF SUBLIM INALS WAS TO REPeat into ur ears over and over again to u actually were convinced that u were loving, friendly, happy, etc...etc.........that is brainwashing to me and if ur opinion differs than that's perfectly fine. I respect ur opinion.
I don't know why subliminals were so important to cheryl, i don't know why she did the things she did in the manner she did. And it hurts me cause even though i have left the whitmore snd i told the truth and A"ruined" all their lives, it's a ashame cause i was ony doing it to help cheryl cause i think that she was covering up ALOT of pain in her life. pain she couldn't deal with ad what drove her to act the way she did... I don't want her to live her life miserably now, I just want her to understand the true meaning of HONESTY ANd HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS as well as the other kids there.
***If you have any other questions feel free to ask me.***
