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My Parents
escaper:
I`m a seed non-graduate who escaped after only 2 months in October of 1971. I was 19 and had done a stint in the Army so was less disabled by the experience than most. Five of us sibs had different levels of exposure to the madness, all with varying degrees of damage. There is no rational way to explain the fact that your own parents give you over to a bunch of crazies and consider the percieved problem to be solved. All my sibs have lives and families that are at least as happy as the Cleavers seemed. I slowed way down on illegal drugs after my experience in the experiment, but used alcohol because it was legal and available for 20 years. I then jumped on the wagon for better than a decade to remove some cobwebs and started a small family. I`m generally happy with my life, but regret the rift that was undoubtedly caused by our experience at the Seed and Straight. I haven`t spoken to my Mother for 7-8 years and don`t plan to open myself up for any more of her damaging abuse. She has tried many times to sabotage my life and success and I just grew tired of it, after having more contact with her than any other sib for many years. As far as everyone`s differing perceptions of the same basic experience, I think we all have to decide what works for us in life, or "whatever floats your boat". Some people bail it out and others fix the hole. The Three Stooges drill another hole to let the water out. That would be akin to joining another program to fix any percieved problems that were probably perpetuated by a program in the first place. I love you all in a way much different than Art demonstrated. He was and probably is a megalomaniac who may or may not have evaluated the damage that he did to hundreds of families while pretending to repair them. Thanks for the opportunity to explain my experience. I thrive on the evidence that there are so many articulate survivors, and feel great sorrow for the many who did not come away from the madness. 30 years is half a lifetime and a princely sum to pay for our parent`s lack of ability to solve the problems they imagined in us all.
Anonymous:
escaper:
I was in Ft. Laud. apparently one of the first 100 victims. Went to school at Pompano with Libby, and never understood how such a smart girl was so taken by the program. Probably the parent abandonment thing, who knows? I actually thought very little about the experience, as they never had me for a minute, I was just biding my time till I could get away and leave town. I`ve been reading the various permutations of message boards and am taken by the stuff I don`t often read about, success and actualization of the torn-apart lives that filtered through the mill over the years.
escaper:
Hey, Debi and Freedom. I live in Bradenton. Small world. Came here to get sober and succeeded for 12 1/2 years, then used my free will to try to drink again. Had some success for months, but found again that the cunning, baffling and powerful legal drug takes tons of resolve to manage successfully. I`m now involved in trying to climb back on the wagon.
MommaDebi:
Dear neighbors...
feel free to contact me, perhaps we could have our own reunion...
debi
dwhitetippery@prodigy.net
[ This Message was edited by: MommaDebi on 2002-06-14 20:03 ]
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