I agree, Ijust cant see 50,000......I always figured that not counting ,spin offs,and siblings that maybe the tolal of people who actually were on front row probably doesnt exceed 25,000. Now some of those people are going to be in sundry forms of denial , ranging from the people who were only exposed briefly,to those who were long term attendees.Most folks I figure would just like to forget it ever happened.I spent decades trying myself,only to get the ocasional "flash" of rage usually when some jackass or another would try to be controlling, or to presume to tell me how I SHOULD feel or think. Now I wish I could remember and try to purge it in some fashion. Id be willing to bet most are trying to forget or deny ,all to varying degrees that have some connection to how long they were there,and how fucked up they were to start with. It becomes hard to say after a point.....some folks flat out didnt need to be there to begin with,the involvement they had with drugs was minimal or non-existant, there were others of us who hit front row at a real shit point in our lives,only to be furthur beaten down by our supposed "saviors".
I also wonder how many folks went on to do what? Be the ceo of somthing? Join the military? Do time? Just live a life?
The options are fairly broad,and will vary from person to person. I know theres got to be a shitload of walking wounded out there,and lots who dont know why,and many more who wont admit why.