On 2003-11-21 02:04:00, Anonymous wrote:
I remember getting my feelings hurt all the fucking time and feeling so fucking vulnerable in those encounter groups. Somehow though, it worked.
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I didn t get feelings run on me much.. I was one of the poeple that staff referred to as "lying in the cut"
But, I'll tell ya, man.. I've seen people ripped to shreds, to the point where they were crying hysterically, and the people would just keep coming. And once someone became the chosen victim for the day, everyone jumped on.. I use to hurt so much for those people.. I use to try and talk to em, in the group.. get to relax, but I always outsounded, to the pleasure of the counselors..
I odn t care what anyone, says, it was all about people asserting themselves and spewing their own ugliness at the expense of others.. Most of those feeling were manufactured in the group, and these people were getting off on destrying others.. I was there.. It was an exercise in viciousness.
and didn t help anybody.. the kids who were rat-packed beyond compare never held their heads as high in that place again. They believed the bullshit that people yelled at them. Looking back, I don t even know how i endured witnessing that.
Paul St. jOhn