Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform > Straight, Inc. and Derivatives
Health since the program..spiritual,mental,physical
Deprogrammed:
--- Quote from: "Deprogrammed" ---This may be what I am looking at here:
http://http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20036466 :flame: :timeout: ::puke::
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Antigen:
It's been about 28 years. Thought I was mostly over anything I couldn't pass off. Then I went for orientation to be a bell ringer for Salvation Army. Hey, times are rough and minimum wage is better than no wage. Anyway... I had a real breakdown over that. Can't really explain, just that the entire militant Christian soldier environment regressed me hard. When I went to sign in my hand wouldn't remember my signature. It wanted to write the signature I had when I was 16. It almost made me laugh thinking about some dumb horror flick about a dude with a transplanted hand that kept doing it's on evil thing. But if I had laughed in the agitated state I was in people might have actually gotten up and run, not just wondered what about me made them feel vaguely like it. My guts were still shaking an hour and 3 beers later.
Deprogrammed:
Thanks to all for answering this thread!
My endocrinologist right now is leaning hard towards Addison's or some form of adrenal insufficiency.
She has ordered 14 tests on me. Some other things that are a bit darker have not been ruled out yet.
I am hoping that it is addison's b/c they can fix me with meds to a good degree. IF it isnt and it is some other form of adrenal malfunction, either way....I will find someone who will study me in regards to the PTSD. Who knows...one step at a time right now, right? Maybe my endocrinologist would be willing to study me if this turns out to be the case.
If it is something a bit darker, at this point, yes I am scared, but I really just want a name for what is wrong so I can just quit shadow-boxing and know what I am fighting.
I hope that more people will discuss there health since the program on this thread. I am hoping that together we can say a lot about trauma stress and what it can do to integral parts of the mind, body and spirit.
Thanks again!
sincerely,
-DP
none-ya:
I had a heart attack 36 years after leaving the program. (Jan. this year. Age 54). I don't think I can blame the seed for that.
Froderik:
--- Quote from: "seamus" ---absolutly come un zipped at the words-Good-bye, Fuck me I dont even know where THAT comes from, or why .
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I don't like "Goodbye" much, either.. with me it's usually, "See ya later".. doesn't sound so final..
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