eye mingles

[Awake]

So I just have to know if this was as weird for everyone else as it was for me. Y'know those eye mingles we did to choose partners in propheets, where we stand nose to nose and stare into each others eyes until someone walks away, or else you keep staring if you want them to be your partner? I remember those being extremely awkward and uncomfortable. Not because I was afraid they would walk away, I just felt really weird. It seemed to last forever. I just sat there the whole time thinking, should I blink? Is that offensive? or, how long do I wait before I move? If I leave too quick it might look like I don't like them. Meanwhile I'm staring at someone who is looking like a statue still, wide eyed, non-blinking psychopath. It was a super claustrophobic feeling for me. Was it like that for everyone, or just me?

[dishdutyfugitive]

You'd have to be a serial killer to not be overwhelmed by the millisecond by millisecond, never to be repeated, cedu propheet staredown at the OK coral, exercise discomfort.

I heard this song this morning

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4jMzKxY ... re=related

and I realized this is the perfect song for a CEDU film. Perfect background music to play (everytime) the main character thinks to himself, "fuck, these place is fucked up".

I also realized that I've always been fond of the song and  never put 2 and 2 together why I liked it. It's a decent song but - but it really hits home about the taboo and forbidden inner-dialouge we all experienced daily at cedu.

[Anonymous]

William Olin's "Escape from Utopia"

A description of "The Trip," an early incarnation of over-night to multi-day exhaustion experiences - some strong and evocative descriptions of deep staring, person to person, pair of eyes to pair of eyes, as the night wends and winds on and on and on...

Also the song...

"children one and all, some of them live in big white houses, some of them live in small"

No results on a google search... wondered at the time if it was Grace Slick and Jefferson Airplane - but maybe a sound-a-like from the wastrel 'acid' era...

If anyone can find details, please post.

"children one and all, some of them live in big white houses, some of them live in small, some of them find an early heaven some of them live in hell, but at night you can't tell ... from boxes in the hall, but then we're only children, children one and all.... Chiiilllldrreeeeeee-eeennn"

Played 20 times. What were they going for, if not a nervous breakdown, or crack-up? I would invite some of the defenders of the program to have a go at this. Pure brain-washing psychological abuse and torture...