Those questionaires always depress me. Before Straight, I was in a Charter hospital for two months (expensive) and during the interview I lied about how much pot I smoked. I said, once a week or less. Anyway, after doing the survey, the lady turned on me and said to my parents blunt out "your son is a drug addict (or has a drug problem) and he is in denial right now. Well, I was denying it right then. I was so mad. She knew how I would act and was using my "denial" to prove it! She knew I would deny it! Who wouldn't know that? But my parents, seeing my anger, and her "expertise" put me in against their own word to the contrary. They were duped. But the depressing part about it, was that they chose to believe a complete stranger, a so-called "expert" and to ignore me. The tears welled up in my eyes. I had been betrayed. Serious pain.
I hold the liars accountable, much more so than my parents, who also lied. Because they saw a dollar sign on my head and were willing to lie repeatedly to my parents. I was only in there for two months, but I can trace my genuine family problems to this day in time March 3, 1988. The day my parents shut me out and agreed with those lying greed devils from hell in white coats.
So, my experience with similar questionaires has been unpleasant. Straight was easier to handle because I had started to buy into the idea of being "a drug addict" having recieved some brainwash in Charter.
But on a positive note, I am stronger for it.
"We are free
here us roar
in numbers to big to ignore
and we know too much to go back and pretend
because we've heard it all before
and we've been down there on the floor (in a restraint?)
No one's ever gonna keep us down again
Oh yes, we are wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, we've paid a price
But look how much we've gained
If we have to
We can do anything
We are strong
We are invincible
We are free."
We are free today, wounded warriors, but we are free. That counts for something.
P.S.- I can't imagine EVER giving one of these questionaires to my children for ANY reason.