oh god, that's so touching. Don't feel bad, anymore. You are a very good person che, a very very kind, nice man. And your voice sounds like a "nice" sesame street character, in a good way...I can't think who though
Well I wouldn't say I feel bad. I've moved beyond doing this out of guilt and into the realm of doing this out of sheer moral outrage. I don't think I could keep at this if it was out of guilt. The emotion of guilt isn't a sufficient fuel to drive me in attaining my objectives.
I do have things I feel guilty about from working at Three Springs and Eckerds, but those feeling tend to manifest themselves in others ways in my life. Rarely ever does the guilt rear its ugly little head here on fornits or anywhere else.
One example, in class today I had a kid who kept speaking Korean. My compulsive anal side told me, "DAMN it.. drop the hammer on him.. He is supposed to be speaking English.. NOT korean! It is english class..!!"
My common sense side told me, "give him a few chances as his first language is Korean and all... sheesh man..."
I choose option number one and busted him...
Well it didn't take to long for me to notice his downcast demeanor and lack of participation in class. I realized that there is clearly more than one way to skin a cat and if I wanted to do my job properly I had better refrain from my 3 springs style of rule enforcement. I was immediately stricken with a nearly numbing sense of guilt for falling back into my asshole counselor routine.
So.. I asked I began complimenting the kid everytime he spoke English and stared at him silently, until he noticed me, when he spoke Korean. After awhile he was speaking more English than Korean and by the end of class nothing but English with a few gentle reminders to do so by myself.
I then went into my grade book and showed the kid where I crossed out the point deduction for his earlier transgression and sent him on his way in happier form than before.
