yes, im looking for people who have experience with their "better half" and people they are entwined with commiting suicide after program
i fell like I have completely lost my mind. Similar to how it feels in program, like my consciousness (sp) has been altered. I am always in pain so terrible that I cant concentrate. I am "stuck" inside myself. I dont have a normal "sense" of time. I always feel "degraded: like Im getting raped....Its hard to explain its a feeling of rage so powerful but twisted. I would go after program but am too weak now for health reasons.Its an unlivable existance and am planning on suicide- Im not saying that to "talked out of it" or to discuss it, its just that there is no future and all there is at present and past is agony. Amazing ...I was always ao strong one. I took anything.. abusive parents, isolation,the works.....Now I am one of those people I never understood. I am an emissiary from planet damaged speaking the language I never understood. And I am trapped here forever ...I think
Well PM me if you feel like trying one last thing. If you're really going to commit suicide no matter what... do us all a favor and take somebody like Litchfield or Sembler out when you do... kidding.. really . i swear ...
Seriously... There is a way to un-fuck your head... it takes time... I know how you feel.. They raped your mind. You don't have to explain, most of have been through the same shit, and there is a way out.. it's through.. PM/im/email me if you feel like talking about it and trying one last thing.
