I was not aware of anyone getting high before coming into group. I can remember a few times that some 7 steppers had been getting high and coming into the back of group, then suddenly they were placed in the blue chairs with the rest of us.
As for me, I had my back operated on while I was on 4th phase. I was all doped up on Lortabs and Percodans, that was pretty strange cause I was messed up on them and had been on morphine and demerol in the hospital, but it was "justified" by the fact that I had this major surgery. I played major "head games" for a while about how that had killed my sobriety. If my memory is correct, I was not allowed to come to the building for about three weeks after the surgery so I would not be as heavily "medicated" while I was in there. When I did go back to group, it was strange, cause I was still taking them. About a week after the surgery, I remember that one of the host sisters had found them in my mom's room and taken a bunch. Naturally, I was accused of it, brought into group,fucked up as a turnip on the very things that were being questioned, and pounded by executives. They did such a good job of trying to break me into admitting that I had taken them, they did not allow but one or two in group to confront me.It went on for hours, screaming at me, telling me that I was full of shit, and to "get honest". I think every exec was in there, I was scared shitless, but at the same time, I was not guilty so I did not care what was said. (Plus, like I said, I was on major doses) I had already endured hours of confrontation at home by my mom, and the host family and sisters, so I was sortof numb in my fear. I do remember that I almost laughed at them all. In fact, I was told to get the smirk off my face or be started over. I had the smirk because I knew that I did not have to steal them, all I had to do was ask. Shit, even the drug screen that I had to give them did not indicate that I had taken too many. BTW, the host sister copped out that night, and when she returned, she admitted that she had stolen them, and that was the reason she left. So, the tables turned, little miss "blow me away" was started over, and had to apologize in group for the hell she had put me thru. BUT, I never got one apology from the Execs who spent hours trying to get me to admit to that shit!! I suppose that would have taken humility, something that was lacking.
