As stated: You were defeated by Elan staff. They manipulated your brain and trained you into thinking what they wanted you to become.
Elan really helped you , so you say? Care to explain why you turned to the bottle for so many years? Surely there must be a reason? People just don't wake up one day and say
" Hey you know what?, I think I'm gonna become an alcoholic."
I'd say you are far from being normal. You glamorizie and openly admit about being a gay by posting crap about bj's and nut sacks dangling from a chin, that is far from being normal. I'd say you have some serious issues, and Elan is a huge cause of it. Elan made you into an alcoholic asshole, bar none. You say you are over it? Then why ion the hell do you continue to lurk at this forum? That's right, lurk. You are obsessed with this particular forum. You come here day in and day out and for what? You attended Elan in 81 right? I was there 6-7 years after you. I saw rings, non-stop verbal abuse, people wearing mops around their neck for punishment, people having their shoe laces and pants taken away because it was a privelege to have them. People wearing multiple signs around their neck, knocking on doors 10 times a day. scrubbing bathrooms with a brush, even know they were clean, what possibly is lite about that? What in 81 did they beat you with a broom stick or something? I witnessed the same shit you did too asshole, big fuckin deal. I also seen Joe R in action in General meetings close to 10 times, and yes he was a nasty, short tempered man. I even seen corner people tied in restraints at night so they wouldn't spilt on their S.P's. Nothing lite about my stay compared to what Elan is today. I was the smart one, and was saved by my Birthday and excercised my right to sign out of that hell hole. What are you proud or something because you stayed the entire 18 months?