It's hard to communicate with somebody when he thinks you're a diabolical mind-control agent and you're convinced that he's a little bit paranoid. --R.A. Wilson
I cross posted this, 'cause I think it's relevant.
I don't buy into the gangstalking hypothesis, it smells like "recovered memories" or other jive like that. Something like that wouldn't work, you'd need too many people to pull it off, and for what? I don't buy it. I think if you are paranoid, and trust no one, then start looking for clues--you WILL find evidence, however flimsy and circumstancial, to back up your fears. "What the Thinker thinks, the Prover proves" or so says some drug-crazed weirdo hell bent fucking things up. Paranoia can become a self-fulfilling prophecy, if you let it. Maybe you should try "metanoia" instead--start believing that the unviverse, and everyone in it, are conspiring For you instead of Against you, that there is a vast network out there somewhere thast does what it can to help you survive and achieve your goals. Try it for a couple of months and let me know what the results are. Not in a cheesy, "power of positive" thinking way, or some goofy solipsism, put as much effort into finding evidence of this "beneficial conspiracy" as you have been putting into uncovering the malevolent one. Really do that for a couple of months and tell me how it went.