It's an analogy I use because it is extremely difficult to explain STRAIGHT to anyone who has not had first hand experience.
I spent a number of years immediately following Straight having nightmares about being confined and unable to escape. Even after waking, it took some time to realize I was safe.
From time to time, even now these nightmares will make an ugly appearance. It's easier for me to snap out of the fear because when I wake, I see my husbands face and I know that I am safe.
"Existing" with no purpose. Your there, but your not. That is how I can begin to explain the emotions of being there.
I haven't allowed myself to fully place my brain back at the time of Straight. Does that make sense? LOL
What I remember, is all I want to remember for right now. I don't think I want too, but a part of me knows I need too.
For a long time, I'm not sure I even understood what was happening to me. I was young. I do know that I have issues, mostly trust issues. Who doesn't, right?
It's fucked up all the way around. What's more fucked up is that there are kids, just like us who are still trapped in these places.
Have you ever heard people say, "This is my job in life"? I believe my job, is to expose every business, person and funder who was involved with Straight. All of them.
