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I lost my virginity at Hyde.
Anonymous:
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---Hi, it's me, the original poster,
I guess I have no real way to identify myself considering I posted originally as a guest. I just want to say that
I don't really think it was rape
or sexual abuse or anything like that; I never said that, and
that wasn't the point in me posting at all.
All I know is my own experience. I was simply sharing my own experience, that did happen at Hyde.
What I'm still a bit upset about is the way that Hyde told me I was a liar,
the way EVERYONE AT HYDE, STAFF included, took it upon themselves to freely humiliate me over this incident, calling me disgusting, a liar, etc, every
day for almost a year... That was horrible, regardless of what anyone says or thinks. I remember actually being cornered in the cafeteria by one senior, one of many intense and false "confrontations" over an already emotional and somewhat painful experience, being screamed at to admit that I was lying, for hours...and I remember crying and just being so frustrated because I wasn't lying about it, but the truth wasn't enough. All these incident sheets...sometimes things were just forced out of you; they needed some kind of horrible, dramatic confession even when there was none. That, honestly, is a sick environment, and it is an environment that turned a normally bad teenage experience into a terrible one. I am not trying to say that Hyde is a horrible, evil cult or anything. It isn't a great, awesome perfect and all-knowing place, either...not at all. Things aren't all black and white.
But the fact remains: I never had sex before I came to Hyde, and although it obviously would have happened regardless, I certainly wouldn't have had to deal with the gross aftermath that I dealt with at Hyde, which DID have a lasting, negative effect on me as a woman and as a person.
My father sent me to Hyde with the hopes of me actually growing there, with the hopes of my already shattered self-esteem healing and re-building, not being stomped out almost completely.
....as others have pointed out, Hyde really didn't have the slightest idea how to handle a kid like me...and many others like me, but Hyde grabs us up anyway (Hyde always knows best) and actually hurts us by doing so. Yes, it does "work" for some people, but the key word there is SOME. Helping some kids does not justify hurting countless others.
--- End quote ---
Thnx for your words; I , too, experienced a hell of witch-hunting slander and worse at Hyde. Reading your post brought those feelings back. Our situations are different, but the aftermath similar. I tried to put it behind me, met the world with a brave face. But the truth remains: I have lived my life differently, with many barricades, to shield myself from ever experiencing something like that again.
The school lied to me. The school lied to the other students about me. The school put me through slanderous public discussion and inspired the student body to participate in the same, both en masse and privately. The excesses that people vented are simply indescribable. I was abandoned by all my friends.
I had problems with depression before this all happened. Since then, I was diagnosed with major depression. I can not get treatment, preferring to suffer, as I have such distrust of any "establishment" organizations. I am afraid of what they might put me through next, or the labels, or the public ostracizing.
It has been a long time, decades, and I don't feel much further along than I started. Sometimes I feel stuck in time, haunted, by this unjust condemnation from people I had heretofore trusted and respected.
This place took something from me that should never be taken from any kid, ever.
Anonymous:
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---Hi, it's me, the original poster,
I guess I have no real way to identify myself considering I posted originally as a guest. I just want to say that
I don't really think it was rape
or sexual abuse or anything like that; I never said that, and
that wasn't the point in me posting at all.
All I know is my own experience. I was simply sharing my own experience, that did happen at Hyde.
What I'm still a bit upset about is the way that Hyde told me I was a liar,
the way EVERYONE AT HYDE, STAFF included, took it upon themselves to freely humiliate me over this incident, calling me disgusting, a liar, etc, every
day for almost a year... That was horrible, regardless of what anyone says or thinks. I remember actually being cornered in the cafeteria by one senior, one of many intense and false "confrontations" over an already emotional and somewhat painful experience, being screamed at to admit that I was lying, for hours...and I remember crying and just being so frustrated because I wasn't lying about it, but the truth wasn't enough. All these incident sheets...sometimes things were just forced out of you; they needed some kind of horrible, dramatic confession even when there was none. That, honestly, is a sick environment, and it is an environment that turned a normally bad teenage experience into a terrible one. I am not trying to say that Hyde is a horrible, evil cult or anything. It isn't a great, awesome perfect and all-knowing place, either...not at all. Things aren't all black and white.
But the fact remains: I never had sex before I came to Hyde, and although it obviously would have happened regardless, I certainly wouldn't have had to deal with the gross aftermath that I dealt with at Hyde, which DID have a lasting, negative effect on me as a woman and as a person.
My father sent me to Hyde with the hopes of me actually growing there, with the hopes of my already shattered self-esteem healing and re-building, not being stomped out almost completely.
....as others have pointed out, Hyde really didn't have the slightest idea how to handle a kid like me...and many others like me, but Hyde grabs us up anyway (Hyde always knows best) and actually hurts us by doing so. Yes, it does "work" for some people, but the key word there is SOME. Helping some kids does not justify hurting countless others.
--- End quote ---
Thnx for your words; I , too, experienced a hell of witch-hunting slander and worse at Hyde. Reading your post brought those feelings back. Our situations are different, but the aftermath similar. I tried to put it behind me, met the world with a brave face. But the truth remains: I have lived my life differently, with many barricades, to shield myself from ever experiencing something like that again.
The school lied to me. The school lied to the other students about me. The school put me through slanderous public discussion and inspired the student body to participate in the same, both en masse and privately. The excesses that people vented are simply indescribable. I was abandoned by all my friends.
I had problems with depression before this all happened. Since then, I was diagnosed with major depression. I can not get treatment, preferring to suffer, as I have such distrust of any "establishment" organizations. I am afraid of what they might put me through next, or the labels, or the public ostracizing.
It has been a long time, decades, and I don't feel much further along than I started. Sometimes I feel stuck in time, haunted, by this unjust condemnation from people I had heretofore trusted and respected.
This place took something from me that should never be taken from any kid, ever.
--- End quote ---
I find it so painful to read about your horrific experiences at Hyde. What really infuriates me is that I've met, talked to, and heard from dozens of people who felt terribly abused by Hyde staff (and even some alumni parents in FLCs, etc.). I'm getting a strong sense that there's a critical mass of people who feel enraged at Hyde and still suffer severe emotional scars as a result of their Hyde experience. This web site provides an opportunity for people like you to discover that you're not alone. Until now, many Hyde victims suffered in silence. Perhaps this forum is providing a therapeutic outlet and, as important, a way for the general public to learn about Hyde's very dark side.
I wish you well as you wrestle with Hyde's painful and shameful legacy.
Anonymous:
--- Quote ---This web site provides an opportunity for people like you to discover that you're not alone. Until now, many Hyde victims suffered in silence. Perhaps this forum is providing a therapeutic outlet and, as important, a way for the general public to learn about Hyde's very dark side.
--- End quote ---
Yes, thank you. Very much so on both points.
Anonymous:
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---Hi, it's me, the original poster,
I guess I have no real way to identify myself considering I posted originally as a guest. I just want to say that
I don't really think it was rape
or sexual abuse or anything like that; I never said that, and
that wasn't the point in me posting at all.
All I know is my own experience. I was simply sharing my own experience, that did happen at Hyde.
What I'm still a bit upset about is the way that Hyde told me I was a liar,
the way EVERYONE AT HYDE, STAFF included, took it upon themselves to freely humiliate me over this incident, calling me disgusting, a liar, etc, every
day for almost a year... That was horrible, regardless of what anyone says or thinks. I remember actually being cornered in the cafeteria by one senior, one of many intense and false "confrontations" over an already emotional and somewhat painful experience, being screamed at to admit that I was lying, for hours...and I remember crying and just being so frustrated because I wasn't lying about it, but the truth wasn't enough. All these incident sheets...sometimes things were just forced out of you; they needed some kind of horrible, dramatic confession even when there was none. That, honestly, is a sick environment, and it is an environment that turned a normally bad teenage experience into a terrible one. I am not trying to say that Hyde is a horrible, evil cult or anything. It isn't a great, awesome perfect and all-knowing place, either...not at all. Things aren't all black and white.
But the fact remains: I never had sex before I came to Hyde, and although it obviously would have happened regardless, I certainly wouldn't have had to deal with the gross aftermath that I dealt with at Hyde, which DID have a lasting, negative effect on me as a woman and as a person.
My father sent me to Hyde with the hopes of me actually growing there, with the hopes of my already shattered self-esteem healing and re-building, not being stomped out almost completely.
....as others have pointed out, Hyde really didn't have the slightest idea how to handle a kid like me...and many others like me, but Hyde grabs us up anyway (Hyde always knows best) and actually hurts us by doing so. Yes, it does "work" for some people, but the key word there is SOME. Helping some kids does not justify hurting countless others.
--- End quote ---
Thnx for your words; I , too, experienced a hell of witch-hunting slander and worse at Hyde. Reading your post brought those feelings back. Our situations are different, but the aftermath similar. I tried to put it behind me, met the world with a brave face. But the truth remains: I have lived my life differently, with many barricades, to shield myself from ever experiencing something like that again.
The school lied to me. The school lied to the other students about me. The school put me through slanderous public discussion and inspired the student body to participate in the same, both en masse and privately. The excesses that people vented are simply indescribable. I was abandoned by all my friends.
I had problems with depression before this all happened. Since then, I was diagnosed with major depression. I can not get treatment, preferring to suffer, as I have such distrust of any "establishment" organizations. I am afraid of what they might put me through next, or the labels, or the public ostracizing.
It has been a long time, decades, and I don't feel much further along than I started. Sometimes I feel stuck in time, haunted, by this unjust condemnation from people I had heretofore trusted and respected.
This place took something from me that should never be taken from any kid, ever.
--- End quote ---
I find it so painful to read about your horrific experiences at Hyde. What really infuriates me is that I've met, talked to, and heard from dozens of people who felt terribly abused by Hyde staff (and even some alumni parents in FLCs, etc.). I'm getting a strong sense that there's a critical mass of people who feel enraged at Hyde and still suffer severe emotional scars as a result of their Hyde experience. This web site provides an opportunity for people like you to discover that you're not alone. Until now, many Hyde victims suffered in silence. Perhaps this forum is providing a therapeutic outlet and, as important, a way for the general public to learn about Hyde's very dark side.
I wish you well as you wrestle with Hyde's painful and shameful legacy.
--- End quote ---
The Brother's Keeper piece takes on an unhealthy "Lord of the Flies" aspect at times. I saw some things that were unjust that were consented to by the community. One that comes to mind is two seniors caught in concentual sex. Male graduates. Female labeled a "slut" Sound familiar?
Anonymous:
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Guest"" ---Hi, it's me, the original poster,
I guess I have no real way to identify myself considering I posted originally as a guest. I just want to say that
I don't really think it was rape
or sexual abuse or anything like that; I never said that, and
that wasn't the point in me posting at all.
All I know is my own experience. I was simply sharing my own experience, that did happen at Hyde.
What I'm still a bit upset about is the way that Hyde told me I was a liar,
the way EVERYONE AT HYDE, STAFF included, took it upon themselves to freely humiliate me over this incident, calling me disgusting, a liar, etc, every
day for almost a year... That was horrible, regardless of what anyone says or thinks. I remember actually being cornered in the cafeteria by one senior, one of many intense and false "confrontations" over an already emotional and somewhat painful experience, being screamed at to admit that I was lying, for hours...and I remember crying and just being so frustrated because I wasn't lying about it, but the truth wasn't enough. All these incident sheets...sometimes things were just forced out of you; they needed some kind of horrible, dramatic confession even when there was none. That, honestly, is a sick environment, and it is an environment that turned a normally bad teenage experience into a terrible one. I am not trying to say that Hyde is a horrible, evil cult or anything. It isn't a great, awesome perfect and all-knowing place, either...not at all. Things aren't all black and white.
But the fact remains: I never had sex before I came to Hyde, and although it obviously would have happened regardless, I certainly wouldn't have had to deal with the gross aftermath that I dealt with at Hyde, which DID have a lasting, negative effect on me as a woman and as a person.
My father sent me to Hyde with the hopes of me actually growing there, with the hopes of my already shattered self-esteem healing and re-building, not being stomped out almost completely.
....as others have pointed out, Hyde really didn't have the slightest idea how to handle a kid like me...and many others like me, but Hyde grabs us up anyway (Hyde always knows best) and actually hurts us by doing so. Yes, it does "work" for some people, but the key word there is SOME. Helping some kids does not justify hurting countless others.
--- End quote ---
Thnx for your words; I , too, experienced a hell of witch-hunting slander and worse at Hyde. Reading your post brought those feelings back. Our situations are different, but the aftermath similar. I tried to put it behind me, met the world with a brave face. But the truth remains: I have lived my life differently, with many barricades, to shield myself from ever experiencing something like that again.
The school lied to me. The school lied to the other students about me. The school put me through slanderous public discussion and inspired the student body to participate in the same, both en masse and privately. The excesses that people vented are simply indescribable. I was abandoned by all my friends.
I had problems with depression before this all happened. Since then, I was diagnosed with major depression. I can not get treatment, preferring to suffer, as I have such distrust of any "establishment" organizations. I am afraid of what they might put me through next, or the labels, or the public ostracizing.
It has been a long time, decades, and I don't feel much further along than I started. Sometimes I feel stuck in time, haunted, by this unjust condemnation from people I had heretofore trusted and respected.
This place took something from me that should never be taken from any kid, ever.
--- End quote ---
I find it so painful to read about your horrific experiences at Hyde. What really infuriates me is that I've met, talked to, and heard from dozens of people who felt terribly abused by Hyde staff (and even some alumni parents in FLCs, etc.). I'm getting a strong sense that there's a critical mass of people who feel enraged at Hyde and still suffer severe emotional scars as a result of their Hyde experience. This web site provides an opportunity for people like you to discover that you're not alone. Until now, many Hyde victims suffered in silence. Perhaps this forum is providing a therapeutic outlet and, as important, a way for the general public to learn about Hyde's very dark side.
I wish you well as you wrestle with Hyde's painful and shameful legacy.
--- End quote ---
The Brother's Keeper piece takes on an unhealthy "Lord of the Flies" aspect at times. I saw some things that were unjust that were consented to by the community. One that comes to mind is two seniors caught in concentual sex. Male graduates. Female labeled a "slut" Sound familiar?
--- End quote ---
Not to mention that with Brother's Keeper (at least Hyde's version of it), I often saw the proverbial pot calling the kettle black. Still more evidence of Hyde's very special, and pathetic, brand of hypocrisy.
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