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Anonymous:
i remember my oldcomer was extremely domineering, controlling, and mean, to the point that i wasnt even allowed to go to the bathroom alone while we were at home - and i knew at the time he purposely positioned himself so that i was fully exposed to him while peeing, and had to shower and dry off and all in front of him too.  not really a sex fantasy - but this thread just reminded me of this - i am positive he was gay and was just getting his cheap thrill at my expense.  he vanished rather quickly after graduating (he was from out of state), luckily i was only his new comer for a couple weeks.

Anonymous:

--- Quote ---On 2006-04-26 10:18:00, NOT12NOW wrote:

"  I thought you might have been my newcomer.   I wanted to apologize.  I guess I could probably apologize for yours-- we were all tentacles after all.  Though, I was pretty cruel, I think it was because I didn't get to prove myself straight in any other way.  Since I was small, and twelve myself, they said I wasn't big enough to work the front desk and most newcomers were just too old for me to have any kind of authority over so I had one poor eleven year old newcomer that I was determined to make straight really fast.  I am glad they took her out of my house after a few weeks.
"

--- End quote ---


Oh, I was really touched by this. Hey, think of "Lord of the Flies."  There isn't a twelve-year-old around who isn't vulnerable to that kind of thing. Thank God my dad was too mean to even allow newcomers in our house (not that the Seed ever invited it, because like you, I was too small to undertake such a thing). God knows what damage I might have done (in my desperation and insecurity) to some poor little kid, if I'd have been put in that position.  

I like your nick a lot, by the way. Yeah, thank God, we're not twelve anymore.

Anonymous:
Thanks, it's wonderful be reminded that I wasn't inherently bad.   I realized, after I posted, that anon probably wasn't my newcomer.  I put together several anon posts and started to feel sure she was one person.  
I guess, I really do feel badly.

Anonymous:
the above message is NOT12NOW, system won't let me sign on.

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