behind a paper bag you say these things,then you try to act like what you've said to me isn't supposed to piss me off! yes,i had desires to be a counselor of some sort.....so what?!...i would've done that anywhere...it just so happens thanks to that place,i couldn't "do" college,so i tried another way to get my desired occupation.you anon ppl hold that against me hiding behind a paper bag.again i explained to you what happened to me.....i had resolved a whole
bunch of stuff i just found out were lies!my family held that false shit against me for 20 years.....i knew i was right all those years but couldn't prove it. now...whats the fucking use? i'm 41 almost 42....in 28 yrs i'll be 70 and my best years were taken away from me....i had come to accept that it was my doing,my fault....now after 20 yrs,i found out way differently....how would any of you feel? at least what you know happened to you 20 years ago,pretty much happened that way...you've been able to lick your wounds the best you could and move on....i have to do that all over again man....how longs it going to take this time? another 20 yrs? shit i'll be 62 yrs old by then.hell yes i'm angry...i'm on the verge of checking out somtimes.....thanks to starry ,gin and froderick,i've been able to deal a little bit of this out,but i wake up torn to pieces about the shit i found out.....i see no hope or resolution in sight for me.....i'm back on first phase of resolveing this crap all over again.nothing i resolved was right or real.....
paper bag,you have alienated me.....behind a paper fucking bag,you acted like a fucking staff member,analising me and my story....its quite unfair of you to hide.....tell me who you are...
oh, its because of the shit in boston ,that my lifes course was manipulated and i wound up the way i did.what those fuckers did 20 yrs ago,manipulated my families perceptions of me,i wound up with a record{crimminal record},etc etc.
are you one of the ppl that was behind all that shit 20 yrs ago,back to stir more shit?if you are,why don't i just make it easy for you and get you a gun so you can finish doing the job you were assigned to do to me..! just leave me alone paper bag.....ok?....good bye everyone.....{to those who helped me thanks...your friend hippie