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« Reply #60 on: March 09, 2006, 12:37:00 PM »
One more thing.  We all have seen how some former staff gets slammed on here (yes, I realize now that Hip is not former staff, but most of his posts reflect his desire to be or give the impression that he was).  That has not happened to Hip.  Again, we've tried to tell him calmly how we felt in an effort to get him to see how what he was posting may be an unfair assumption on his part without alienating him.
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« Reply #61 on: March 09, 2006, 12:56:00 PM »
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On 2006-03-08 11:29:00, Anonymous wrote:

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On 2006-03-03 17:25:00, stillahippie564 wrote:


"i guess...if you knew the reason why i did that,you'd understand....after that place,i had nothing..no high school diploma or college degree


just a ged....i went on staff to get in on the ground floor of somthing i could use to better myself! not to be an asshole....i tried college after i finished straight,but it was more of sitting in a blue chair for me!i couldn't do it! i didn't want to be mowing yards at fort belvor the rest of my life and i loved helping ppl out!


who was going to HIRE a ged /high school drop out?


no one was!...i was a trainee for 5 weeks and never really stood a chance of being a staff member...they never wanted me to start with....


it was just a cruel joke they played on me....whether ol' one year believes me or not,i don't give a flying fuck ok? no one who didn't totally kiss someones ass got out in one fucking year! dig it? i never knew anyone who was totally non-compliant in that place get out of straight in one fucking year! all i said was they were fucking lucky!....can you argue that?'cause i can't! even lulu couter was a fucking trainee,man......she was in the same schooling predicament as me when she finally got out of the kids program....she couldn't "do" school either! it was way too much like straight to her! all i was trying to do was get some kind of experience so i could have some kind of life after my ordeal in straight! thats all! they were the only ones that would give me a fucking chance without a college degree! it was a huge mistake!HUGE....and it cost me dearly......but i'll bet ol' one year


doesn't understand that,huh?......my motives were honest....i was told straight had fucking changed and was changing.....i thought i would actually help ppl in there....that was my big stupid mistake!they didn't want anyone actually helping the kids in there...they wanted control freaks for staff....that wasn't me!...lol....she or he has nothing on me....i'm glad you got out in one year....i'm glad thats all they got out of you...


i wasn't allowed to date anyone for 28 1/2 months!


thats why i said lucky fucking you!....nice to see the misinterpetation or twisting of my words and what i went through.....thanks....hippie"






Hip,

I am the one who started this thread and the " one year" you referred to. Why are you always so angry? When you first started posting here I read what you wrote with a certain amount of interest because of your circumstances. Then I started to see a pattern taking place. You say the same thing over and over and over. You were screwed over, all you were doing was tryin to help kids, your life was ruined by these people who were out to get you, blah, blah, blah. This may be some of the reason that people are finding you offensive. Like, for example, you say that no one makes it out in 1 year with out kissing someone's ass. How the hell would you know what it was like for me and how I was " lucky" enough to make it out in one year?? Do you not see how insulting that is?

I'm really surprised that you didn't make it as a staff member because you seem to have the asshole quality that was required to be one.



Speaking of being on staff, I just have to say something about that. I wouldn't care what someone told me about how the program had changed, or how much I wanted to help people, there is no way in hell I would EVER have gone back in under any circumstancs. I find it interesting that you couldn't do college because it was " more sittin in a blue chair" so what do you do? You go right back into straight as a staff member!!! If you were in the same straight as I was ( I don't mean location) then how could you even think for one minute that they were looking for anything OTHER than a control freak?

Of course I can understand that you now see what a huge mistake that was, but take responsibilty for the fact that it was your CHOICE. No one lured you in under false pretenses. If you spent 28 1/2 months in there, then you should have had a pretty good idea of what you were gettin yourself into. See what I'm sayin here?"


my my people sure are obsessed with hippie and his opinions. personally i rather dig the lower case letter thing and all the ellipses. it's hot.
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« Reply #62 on: March 09, 2006, 01:35:00 PM »
behind a paper bag you say these things,then you try to act like what you've said to me isn't supposed to piss me off! yes,i had desires to be a counselor of some sort.....so what?!...i would've done that anywhere...it just so happens thanks to that place,i couldn't "do" college,so i tried another way to get my desired occupation.you anon ppl hold that against me hiding behind a paper bag.again i explained to you what happened to me.....i had resolved a whole
bunch of stuff i just found out were lies!my family held that false shit against me for 20 years.....i knew i was right all those years but couldn't prove it. now...whats the fucking use? i'm 41 almost 42....in 28 yrs i'll be 70 and my best years were taken away from me....i had come to accept that it was my doing,my fault....now after 20 yrs,i found out way differently....how would any of you feel? at least what you know happened to you 20 years ago,pretty much happened that way...you've been able to lick your wounds the best you could and move on....i have to do that all over again man....how longs it going to take this time? another 20 yrs? shit i'll be 62 yrs old by then.hell yes i'm angry...i'm on the verge of checking out somtimes.....thanks to starry ,gin and froderick,i've been able to deal a little bit of this out,but i wake up torn to pieces about the shit i found out.....i see no hope or resolution in sight for me.....i'm back on first phase of resolveing this crap all over again.nothing i resolved was right or real.....
paper bag,you have alienated me.....behind a paper fucking bag,you acted like a fucking staff member,analising me and my story....its quite unfair of you to hide.....tell me who you are...
oh, its because of the shit in boston ,that my lifes course was manipulated and i wound up the way i did.what those fuckers did 20 yrs ago,manipulated my families perceptions of me,i wound up with a record{crimminal record},etc etc.
are you one of the ppl that was behind all that shit 20 yrs ago,back to stir more shit?if you are,why don't i just make it easy for you and get you a gun so you can finish doing the job you were assigned to do to me..! just leave me alone paper bag.....ok?....good bye everyone.....{to those who helped me thanks...your friend hippie
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« Reply #63 on: March 09, 2006, 01:45:00 PM »
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On 2006-03-09 10:35:00, stillahippie564 wrote:

at least what you know happened to you 20 years ago,pretty much happened that way...you've been able to lick your wounds the best you could and move on....i have to do that all over again man....

Last time and I'm done.  Hip, I like you, I hope you stick around but the above quote is exactly what I'm talking about.  How the hell would you know if we did or didn't experience that?  You're assuming that we didn't, that you were the only one.  For the last time.....you weren't.  Yes, we understand how much it sucks.  I'm sorry it happened to you, I'm sorry it happened to me, I'm sorry it happened to all of us.


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paper bag,you have alienated me.....behind a paper fucking bag,you acted like a fucking staff member,analising me and my story....its quite unfair of you to hide.....tell me who you are...

No, you've alientated yourself.  We tried to explain to you how some of what you were saying made us feel.  You don't like it or agree. Ok.



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are you one of the ppl that was behind all that shit 20 yrs ago,back to stir more shit?


No, but I understand you thinking that and the paranoia.
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« Reply #64 on: March 09, 2006, 02:59:00 PM »
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On 2006-03-09 10:35:00, stillahippie564 wrote:

"behind a paper bag you say these things,then you try to act like what you've said to me isn't supposed to piss me off! yes,i had desires to be a counselor of some sort.....so what?!...i would've done that anywhere...it just so happens thanks to that place,i couldn't "do" college,so i tried another way to get my desired occupation.you anon ppl hold that against me hiding behind a paper bag.again i explained to you what happened to me.....i had resolved a whole

bunch of stuff i just found out were lies!my family held that false shit against me for 20 years.....i knew i was right all those years but couldn't prove it. now...whats the fucking use? i'm 41 almost 42....in 28 yrs i'll be 70 and my best years were taken away from me....i had come to accept that it was my doing,my fault....now after 20 yrs,i found out way differently....how would any of you feel? at least what you know happened to you 20 years ago,pretty much happened that way...you've been able to lick your wounds the best you could and move on....i have to do that all over again man....how longs it going to take this time? another 20 yrs? shit i'll be 62 yrs old by then.hell yes i'm angry...i'm on the verge of checking out somtimes.....thanks to starry ,gin and froderick,i've been able to deal a little bit of this out,but i wake up torn to pieces about the shit i found out.....i see no hope or resolution in sight for me.....i'm back on first phase of resolveing this crap all over again.nothing i resolved was right or real.....

paper bag,you have alienated me.....behind a paper fucking bag,you acted like a fucking staff member,analising me and my story....its quite unfair of you to hide.....tell me who you are...

oh, its because of the shit in boston ,that my lifes course was manipulated and i wound up the way i did.what those fuckers did 20 yrs ago,manipulated my families perceptions of me,i wound up with a record{crimminal record},etc etc.

are you one of the ppl that was behind all that shit 20 yrs ago,back to stir more shit?if you are,why don't i just make it easy for you and get you a gun so you can finish doing the job you were assigned to do to me..! just leave me alone paper bag.....ok?....good bye everyone.....{to those who helped me thanks...your friend hippie"


i wish you the best of luck in finding some nicer friends to play with. you really DID get abused in a bad way by a very abusive cult. you don't have to make anyone here believe it, and you don't have to stick around or prove anything to anyone here, AT ALL. turn your back on these people, you owe them nothing, no explanation at all. personally all i read in your posts is someone sincerely struggling with their history and stuff. this is probably better done by yourself or with someone who is nice to you.
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« Reply #65 on: March 09, 2006, 03:00:00 PM »
How the hell would you know if we did or didn't experience that? You're assuming that we didn't, that you were the only one. For the last time.....you weren't

paper bag,you're the one doing any assuming....if you LIKE ME so much,what the fuck is your major malfunction?i don't need that kind of "liking me"......that the same fucking liking me that i got up there from all those "caring ppl"...again i will ask you,if you know someone who had a deal like that,tell me who they are...i'd like to talk to them.....i really would....no sarcasism....i need to talk to someone with that kind of experience ok?......as it is i'm really on the verge of ....geez....fuck it...fuck all this shit...i'll just go hunt down the mother fuckers responsible....hippie
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