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Offline Angel Lux

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« Reply #15 on: March 16, 2006, 02:43:00 PM »
Ugly an advantage?  Haha...No offense, but I'm afraid you are mistaken.  I was FUGLY as a teen and still got reamed ALL THE TIME for being a slut.  I had been molested at age 13 by an Internet predator who made child porn with me and physically abused me.  The staff and students at CEDU managed to convince me that I was a whore and seduced this 28 year old pervert into having sex with me because no one else would fuck such an ugly girl.  When I disclosed that I had been abused they told me I was lying.  I spent numerous raps listening as my peers reamed me for "making up stuff to play the victim" -- one student (who was a rapist and woman-beater) went so far as to say that my description of the abuse "sounds like something out of a cheesy comic book".  The irony of ME getting locked up and blamed while that sicko still walks the streets is a staggering crime against humanity.  At the same time the staff and students were taking me to raps and accusing me of being jealous of the pretty girls, and on top of that the guys accused me of having crushes on them! Like being ugly by itself wasn't enough.  Easier being ugly?  HELL NO!
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« Reply #16 on: March 16, 2006, 03:18:00 PM »
That sound like the same old sobb story. Some crap out of a bad comic book. Get a life! STOP STALKING PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET!
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« Reply #17 on: March 17, 2006, 02:30:00 PM »
Are you the person who made the "comic book" comment in that rap so many years ago?  If so, I see you haven't changed, rapist, woman beater.  

Regardless of if that's you or not, why would you attack someone who experienced repetitive trauma and wishes to share a story with others that might lead to a bit of enlightenment for those who could possibly prevent such atrocious crimes in the future?  What the hell do you have to prove?  What's your problem?  Is this what a mature adult is to your precious program that saved your life?  You'd better take a good hard look at yourself and realize that this shit don't cut it in the real world.

And since when did I become a stalker?  Did I mention names of students in my posts?  Am I going to people?s houses, contacting people obsessively, making threats?  Um, no.  Reread the post and use some common sense rather than relying on your twisted CEDU antics as a sad excuse for logic.

Newsflash:  I'm an adult and no one can rob me of my rights.  ANY CHILD WHO IS A VICTIM OF MOLESTATION IS NOT RESPONSIBLE IN ANY WAY FOR THE CRIMES COMITTED AGAINST HER/HIM!!!

Get a life, loser.  Your program is over and this isn't a rap.  Go make up for the lack in the size of your genitals somewhere esle.
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« Reply #18 on: March 17, 2006, 02:41:00 PM »
why did I say that you're a big Whore and a liar? Because I can, you slut.
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« Reply #19 on: March 17, 2006, 02:59:00 PM »
You're idle insults do not affect me.  Nice try, though.  Way to exercise your freedom of speech (something we did not have at SCEU).
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« Reply #20 on: March 17, 2006, 03:02:00 PM »
I agree with Angel Lux here. I was certainly no beauty queen at RMA. My friends, on the other hand, were some of those naturally beautiful girls that have been mentioned here. I wasn't one to really focus on whether I was "ugly" or not prior to RMA... maybe because I was so young. I am sure I had the normal adolescent feelings, but it did not keep me up at night. But then, at RMA, that is one thing I was constantly talked to about. When it was time to come up with a positive quality about myself, I was ALWAYS forced to wear a card that said "BEAUTY" or "BEAUTIFUL". All of the "ugly" girls did. I got more of a complex while I was there over my appearance than before going there. I can still hear Caroline Wolf yell at me about my looks... as if I could do something about it - I wasn't allowed to wear make-up, or fix my hair, or tweeze my eyebrows, or whatever. Errr...
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« Reply #21 on: March 17, 2006, 03:14:00 PM »
Oh, and by the way, you did not initially call me a whore and a liar.  You told me to "Get a life! STOP STALKING PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET!"  Get your rebuttal straight.  Your argument is inherently flawed -- an overt sign of an underdeveloped mind.  Surprise, your program didn't make you a whole person after all.

Beg your pardon for being immature.  We all have hard days.
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« Reply #22 on: March 17, 2006, 03:18:00 PM »
Oh, Boomerang!  I had to wear the "Beautiful" tag in my truth propheet!!!  Good to find someone to laugh with, my dear.
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« Reply #23 on: March 17, 2006, 04:05:00 PM »
I have no memory of girls being implicated simply on looks.   I remember one woman who was drop-dead-gorgeous, and was never [that I remember] yelled at in a rap for flirting.

On the topic of sexual abuse, I do remember being told I was lying, because I could not manifest the requisite tears.   There was one staffer [carolyn wolf] who repeatedly yelled at me in raps saying I want it.  When she'd yell those horrible things, I'd just shut down emotionally.   I would not yell back.  I would not cry.  I would sit there immobile.   While living in an abusive household, I learned how to just shut down.  That skill came in handy at RMA.  I could simply disengage my self from the moment.  

At the same time, I remember one rap, where the whole room was yelling at me, and I just got up and left the room.   I was put on a table restriction.   What sucked about being on a full-time or table restriction was that you were the guaranteed target for the rap.   Guess, I was not thinking clearly about the consequences when I left the rap -- must have happened early in my stay.

After a few months at RMA, I discovered that if I could start the rap off indicting someone else, chances were that I'd not get indicted.  The trick was to yell the loudest at someone in the beginning.   Thankfully, I have a loud voice.  I was one of the look good students.  I do not think that there was any issue that people try to indict me with on a regular basis.  I think it was because, once indicted I'd try two strategies.   First, I'd try to flip it on the person who indicted me, or move it over to someone else.   If that did not work, with out even thinking about I'd disassociate myself from the room, and the people yelling.  I can think of only two times that I really fell apart in a rap or workshop.  In many ways it would have been better for me, if I could have manifested the requisite tears.   I always thought that the students who could cry on the drop of a dime had it much better.   I was secretly jealous, but at the same time those were  the students who I'd indict.   Get a kid crying, and if they were a good crier [i.e. for a long time] then I'd never have to worry about being attacked. Was I selfish?  You bet.   But I was also young and trying my best to survive. I am wondering where the others who thought that the best defense was a strong offense?
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« Reply #24 on: March 17, 2006, 04:14:00 PM »
You stinky bitch! You seduced a 28 year old man to have sex with you? Jesus, you're a total slut. May god have mercy on your soul for doing such terrible awful things.
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« Reply #25 on: March 17, 2006, 04:57:00 PM »
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On 2006-03-17 13:14:00, Anonymous wrote:

"You stinky bitch! You seduced a 28 year old man to have sex with you? Jesus, you're a total slut. May god have mercy on your soul for doing such terrible awful things.  "


You're just pissed because no one wants to seduce you.
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« Reply #26 on: March 17, 2006, 04:59:00 PM »
man, ain't that the truth!
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« Reply #27 on: March 19, 2006, 04:25:00 AM »
Fuck, I almost forgot about that shit too!  They did it all the time at ASR.  Nothing like being forced into a big pile of arms and legs belonging to a bunch of strangers to help you get over being gang raped at age 12, or beaten from age 5 onwards.  And if for some odd reason you didn't like the mandatory invasion of personal space, that meant there was something wrong with you.

Oh yeah, and a "FUCK YOU" to the dumbass anon who keeps running their mouth where they've got no business.[ This Message was edited by: Goodtobefree on 2006-03-19 01:26 ]
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« Reply #28 on: March 20, 2006, 09:24:00 AM »
Fuck me?! FUCK YOU!
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« Reply #29 on: March 20, 2006, 10:11:00 AM »
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