That's the problem with CEDU--the unaccredited, bullshit staff members with degrees from Yahoo University practicing off the wall, PSEUDO psychology that is usually sought by fucked up adults joining EST and Lifespring in a pathetic attempt to "find myself." The "therapy" models CEDU practiced were not even sound. They weren't even ethical for impressionable minors in development. Only mature, consenting adults should place themselves in these highly contrived, mind fucking situations, and even then, you'd be a moron, sitting there, letting people fuck with your mind and telling you what you and your experiences are all about.
Staff members at CEDU had NO business practicing "therapy." They had ZERO boundaries--which is just a BASIC tenet of therapy. Many had some really fucked up stories they told us in detail, about violence, drug addiction, rape, bestiality etc.
And we were supposed to look up to them? Girls are supposed to feel safe sitting with someone who traumatized other women? These people were such dipshits that they projected all their own crap on you. So even though I was never a drug addict, not sent to CEDU for drugs and had stopped experimenting way before CEDU, the fact that I had ever touched them made me an addict. Who made that decree? The former cokehead staff leader who lost everything to drugs. He couldn't BEGIN to separate his personal life from ours'. Sadly, this was true amongst most staff.
The other among MANY ways CEDU fucked with us was treating all FEMALE students with a sexual history (and even some with NO sexual history) like sluts. For years after CEDU, I felt guilty over every sexual feeling, and I was never even promiscuous. They didn't even help you heal wounds from old trauma--they exacerbated them by treating you like a whore, and threw it in your face every time they wanted to keep you indoctrinated. Does that sound like emotional growth? This wasn't about making you strong or building your self worth. This was about keeping you compliant and keeping you ashamed.
The sad thing is that most new staff members were treated similarly and made to be ashamed of themselves, made to tell their stories in dramatic detail, and could only advance after being put through emotional hell and turned into a fucking bully. That was strength to CEDU.
Fuck CEDU.