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things I learned at MMS

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Anonymous:
1.Naming myself an "addict" rather than dealing with my real disorders.

2.How to be the greatest manipulater and lier

katfish:
Ok, I'll play:

how to truly become a machine of sorts and close myself off completely from reality and my mind.

how to make myself cry for hours when I wasn't really sad to begin with.

how to  blame myself for evertyhing that is problematic in my life b/c the simple belief in a 'higher power' and taking inventory was not working and was in fact a far over-simplification of what really was bothering me and causing me emotional distress.

How to zone out for hours when things become unpleasant

How to pretend being powerless was a good thing, and accept lack of agency instead of creating my own agency.

Like stated above- how to pick apart people in an extremely judgmental fasion- dividing the world and people in fucked up/non-fucked up categories in really stupid John like ways.

How to fear men completely.

How to fear being intimate, fearing forming 'fucked up' relationships with animals/people- as John was constantly suggesting to me...I learned how to further no 'need anyone' and that 'needing' people was a neagative thing.

katfish:
oh, and how to ski and camp.

Anonymous:
1. I learned more about drugs than i ever did in my life, and when I left the school I did all of them because hearing everyone being an addict I wanted to try it. It was fun while it lasted anyway. It was also like I did the punishment, might as well do the crime.

BarnardlyB:
Actually, I must say I did the same.
I heard so much from everyone else, i was curious. Yet, as I took that first drink or first hit of whatever it was I couldn't help feel like a frog about to be turned into a princess.....you know what i mean.
I had been told if I drink ill be an addict or whatever so I thought maybe addicts felt differently right away...hahaha....stupid me
i was just a kid.

B

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