I was there towards the tail end of your stay. We probably never met. I don't feel scarred either, but I did go through a lot of adjustment difficulties after I graduated. I used to have a lot of stress dreams, and I basically went through deprogramming myself. It messed with my identity for a while, to be sure. But I eventually moved on and grew up.
In the grand scheme of behavior mod schools, CEDU/RMA were among the cushier, no doubt, but there certainly were some unqualified staff. Caroline being one of them. I heard it got crazier in the 90s, but that the program was more coercive when you and I were there. Kids from the 90s and beyond state that it was much easier to resist the programming. Probably because a lot of the structure and strict regime that you and I experienced had lapsed, according to testimony from alumni.
I liked Mare, too. She and I weren't close, but she seemed nice. I don't even remember being in a lot of her raps, except for my very first one. I was shocked when I found out she had passed away. Dan was pretty decent, too, simply for the fact that I associate him with being away from the school, since he ran the wilderness program.
As far as friendships, well, my friendships today are more substantial than anything I had then. Mainly because I was so immature and inexperienced with developing close connections, and the school really didn't help facilitate that understanding. (Although I did have some close friends before I went to RMA.) At RMA, I essentially felt like a freak. Although I certainly bought into the program and tried hard enough. (Maybe too hard. Which was part of my problem.)
I have some good memories, too. Mainly the wilderness expeditions, and Christmas. (As well as the weeks leading up to Christmas, since we didn't have to work, and did Santa's Workshop instead.)
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