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Antigen:

--- Quote ---On 2005-10-18 16:05:00, jgar wrote:

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 I never saw the Seed as a scam I believed in what they taught. That it was flawed I'll give you that but not a scam. "

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Just because you believed it didn't make it true. Lots of people believe in their scams. That's how it works. The fact remains that the Seed sold itself as a drug rehab while recruiting clients who were not drug addicted. Good thing, too, cause they really didn't have a lot of help for that particular problem. Art and his little gang cried poor mouth, soliciting donations and public funding from anyone gullible enough to believe it was all going to help those poor (imaginary) drug addicted kids. In reality, the core players came out of it extremely wealthy while us alleged beneficieries came out of it less our college funds, inheritances and, in many cases, w/ irreparable damage to our families. Oh yeah, that was the other selling point; "We put families back together!" Yeah, right?

How, exactly, is that not a scam?

"Now, I'm a walking dead man," ... "And what bothers me is that I'm dead because I tried to help the kids. And it's all the fault of all those people over there at the DEA." [Dead Man Talking]


--Ben Guillory
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Anonymous:
Gese Louise Stripe , you sound like one yough bitch.

Anonymous:

--- Quote ---On 2005-10-18 16:05:00, Stripe wrote:

"On the down side, life can be hard, painful, difficult and trying for every single living person - not just seedlings.  IT can also be a most beautiful and prescious experience.  Seedlings never had a lock on that.



But guess what, staying true to any thing will cost you.  Some prices I don't mind paying at all. Tell me anon, do you regret the price(s) you have paid for holding fast to your beliefs?



You guys who stayed and would go back in a heartbeat if it existed can keep your kind memories but you get no brownie points for that.  Geeze-louise, I should feel sorry for people whose lives are hard because they have kept their head in the sand?  



In turn, people who have rejected and recall the  place with no fondness at all and have been blessed with a cynical outlook about these kinds of places (like me) don't get any brownie points either.  



Sorry pal, but that's life.  No one said it would be easy.



[ This Message was edited by: Stripe on 2005-10-18 16:07 ]"

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Hum this atitude is familar wonder where i've exprienced it before?
Cold,unbending toward other perceptions. i guess in this world two wrongs do make a right.
i guess you did pick a few traits up after all and here you thought all that time was wasted

NOT12NOW:
No one had to trick or drag me into the seed because Suzy and Scott did my intake
God she was cute, square face, bright.  She was the first woman told about things.  What I was doing with boys. How I ended up running away.  She was the first adult to greet me with out distance.  She seemed to understand what I was going through.  She was someone I wanted to emulate.  She gave me a cigarette.  

Later she yelled at me that I was ?so full of shit,? she couldn?t believe they were trying to help me.  I think she was also the one who pointed out during my ?come down,? that I didn?t even inhale my cigarettes (You?d think, maybe, if I didn?t inhale tobacco I didn?t have a drug problem?)  
The things I remember fondly about all staff will always be coupled with the pain they caused me. I don?t know if she was getting off on the chair and the girl.   I remember her shaking her leg a lot but wasn?t I clued in to what was ?sexual? yet.  Maybe she just developed a tick, after all she did go through the seed too, she could always have been started over right? I developed a habit of rubbing the tops of my thighs really fast in-group. Maybe it was an anxiety-fueled tick, or maybe it was to stay alert.   Also remember doing weird things with my spine to amuse myself during raps and there was the lip smackers phase for a while.   Chicks were passing requests to borrow each other?s tubes--It came in different flavors.  The staff stepped in and snipped those exchanges from the aisle.
 
God those raps were dull.

GregFL:

--- Quote ---On 2005-10-18 11:42:00, Stripe wrote:

"If you said you were a virgin then the assumption was you were lying. I mean, how could you prove your virginity short of a physical exam?  My word against theirs.



But, if you lied and said you weren't, well then, in your heart you would know that you were a liar. But somehow, being a liar at heart was better than being being confronted and forced to defend the awful truth: that you WERE a virgin, but because you were in the seed you were a druggie and therefore you must be a liar.



Picture this....I can still recall old Suzi (Not Barker), standing there on the hot pavement off to the side of the loading dock back behind the SR84 building, rythmically and repeatedly, ever so slightly bending and straighten the same leg as she rocked on the crotch of her britches saying to one sweaty little girl who was responding to a confrontation about her sexual history and tearfully pleading her virginity, "Sit down...you're lying."  



How the fuck did Suzi (Not - Barker) know anything about the sexual history of this girl?  And what was up with that crotch rockin' anyway?



And Suzi, if you are reading this, I will swear on a stack of anything you want to stack - you did this to that girl.



So, what's a girl to do?  It's  so freaking obvious....lie.  What a piece of shit I am for lying.

 Oh yeah, I was a virgin. But then, I also lied.

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Stripe, you captured the whole thing in a nutshell, especially the part about honesty. Honesty was the first and most important rule, right? However, if you were honest, you would get Confronted and screamed at, so you were forced to violate the rule in order to survive and "progress" and earn the right to be treated like a human being.

Fondness?  Ft Lauderdale, sometimes my friend you just don't get it. You aren't necessarily bitter because you  don't recall past experiences in a good light.

Should for example, victims of extreme violence be expected to recall their attackers' sense of humor or be labelled as bitter?

Com'n dude, try to understand how a 12 or 13 year old boy or girl would feel during these "raps" about sexuality and upon witnessing others getting torn to shreds over sexual "lies" and so forth. Think about how fragile a child's mind is about sex and their physical maturity and how someone would feel discussing these things in a venue where they would and could be screamed at and bellittled in front of hundreds of older kids and even family members and friends from outside the seed.  Imagine how these children would lie in order to protect themselves from these encounters, and then imagine how scared they would be that their "lie" would be exposed or that their "mind would be read" by the adult staff.

Kindness?  These sexual boys and girls raps were nothing short of humiliating, degrading and dangerous to the mental health of the children forced to attend them.

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