I've been out for awhile, and actually, my attitude has changed in the exact opposite direction of yours, Shanlea. At first I thought that maybe I had cheated myself (not by not giving myself in to the program...hell no! I mean for not coming to terms with the fact that maybe I had been psychologically abused), but I drifted well away from that and am very content with my "I didn't give a fuck then, and I still don't give a fuck about it now" attitude.
I do agree that people were being abused in those schools. But what I'm saying is that it didn't have to be that way. I knew that whether I went along with the program or told them to go fuck themselves, I'd still be a freshmen in college eventually. The people who got abused mentally, well they set themselves up for it. They gave staff all the ammunition they needed. They got into the program, "ran their shit and came clean", etc, etc, and that was all the staff needed to get in their heads. Me? They couldn't read me, and I wouldn't let them, and believe me, that killed them. Sure, I did plenty of restrictions, and countless more programs because I wouldn't get real. I was held back from my Peer Group's Brothers, I Want to Live, and I & Me. It would've taken me 32 months to graduate the program if I hadn't just left after the I & Me. But I still wouldn't let them get inside my god damn head, and from what I've read around here, it was worth it!
As for the academics? Yeah, they were a joke. I struggled through quite a few of my early undergraduate classes. I had to teach myself all the pre-requisites to Calculus so I could take that and get a good grade. I had to break out the books and learn all the things about history and our government that CEDU neglected to teach just so I could pass Poli Sci. But in the end, the strong shall overcome, and I passed those classes with flying colors.
Half the kids who were at CEDU weren't going to bother going to college anyways. Some of them didn't have a prayer of going to a halfway decent school. So why would academics matter to them? And to those, like me, who did place a huge importance on a good education and going to a good university? Well, the academics were weak in general, but I can remember 3 teachers at BCA (Jeff Welp, Val Davis, and Jim Hooper for those who were there) that were excellent teachers. Val's English classes were better than English clases at most normal High Schools. Jim Hooper was a genius and knew about just about anything related to Science, and if you wanted to know it, he would teach it. And if that wasn't enough, which obviously it wasn't, John Kastelic, the librarian, was a brilliant man with a passion for teaching. I spent countless hours in the library, the only place other than my restrictions I was allowed to go most of the time, just learning about various things. Literature, humanities, languages, you name it. But most of the kids at BCA would rather just sit and bitch about how much the academics sucked than actually doing something about it.
Not to mention the fact that there's always a little something something called post graduate school.
So you say BCA was tamer? Well, I can't say whether that was true or not, but as for being tight wired with bullies and snitches? Of course we had that! I'd say 75% of the kids there would've snitched in a heartbeat. It happened to me plenty of times. I got snitched on for brewing alcohol, I got snitched on for smoking, and I got snitched on for having sex. The latter two represented my final two trips to Ascent. But for the few things I got caught doing, I got away with much more. Getting weed on campus was a rarity for most kids. But from my first day on campus I was busy figuring out all the angles. I wasn't one of the stupid kids that asked the pizza delivery guys for weed. I wasn't one of the stupid kids that went looking for it on town trips. Nor did I try to sneak it back from home visits. No, I gradually buttered up a staff member. Not a program staff; kitchen staff! We spent dorm time after dorm time (4-5 pm) down in that kitchen making friends with her. And after a few months, we had our hook up. It wasn't that difficult. But most kids just didn't have the patience to pull it off.
But I do agree with your take on the sexual relations and interpersonal relations. Yes, even during my time, it was very difficult to pull it off. It was the # 1 thing people got busted for. I don't think too many kids were getting laid there. In fact, a good percentage of them were virgins in the first place, and who wanted to lose their virginity at CEDU? You had to plan that shit out, make sure the right staff were working, have look outs that you had complete trust in, have a healthy stash of protection (god knows what some of those girls had), etc, etc. But like I said, I managed to pull it off (all but one time), and oh man did it make my stay easier.
But yeah, their oppression of normal teenage flirting was extremely unhealthy. The fact that they made so much as checking the opposite sex out such a taboo was just not normal. I understand that there were girls there who had serious problems with sexual relations, but for the rest of us, and even for them to a certain degree, not letting us explore our desires was just sick. I found myself having a lot of trouble in relationships after CEDU, and not until I found someone who had knowledge of my experiences in Idaho could I get over it.
CEDU is definitely the last place I would send my kids to learn interpersonal relations.