Okay, PTSD is pow'ful frestratin'. Mah haid jest ain't right...as in, ah cant read ennythin' len'thy o' complicated, cuss it all t' tarnation. Kint corncentrate at all, ah reckon...mah attenshun span lasts fo' a few minutes tops. ah's not used t'me haid bein' so screwed up. So ah cant wawk o' read fo' skoo. So, today ah started a 90-day medical leave of absence fum wawk. Thankfully, mah employer allers this hyar (unpaid of course). Oh an' ah wont be able t'finish classes eifer...I'll nevah be able t'git caught up this hyar semseter. So now ah also hafta put off graduashun until next sprin'. Which means ah will now haf even mo'e skoo debt, which is outta corntrol as it is. Does ennyone knows if 3 months is a-gonna be long inough t'pull it back togither? ah's wo'ried about whut will happen eff'n ah still kint wawk at th' end of 90 days. ah have t'be funckshunal, as in able t'read an' comprehend heavy shit an' also be able t'prodooce a coharnt wawk produck by late December o' else ah's in deep shit...ah might then lose mah job, jest fo' starters. Also....fo' them of yo' who haf receieved treatment fo' PTSD, how he'pful is th' meds? ah's wo'ried about takin' ennythin' but at th' same time ah cant stan' whut ah wreck ah's wif all this hyar emoshunal shit floodin' back. Shet mah mouth! ah cant stan' feelin' so god dadburn dysfunckshunal, ah reckon. ah's also exhaested most of th' time, especially af'er talkin' t'mah counselo' o' t'ennyone on th' phone. Does this hyar evah git better? ah dont know...ah guess ah jest be hankerin' t'knows thet thar is hope an' thet PTSD wont kick mah ass fo' too long, acco'din' t' th' code o' th' heells! ah hate not feelin' like mahse'f an' bein' sad all th' time (among other thin's).