On 2005-09-15 23:10:00, Withdraw wrote:
"I can not tell a lie.. (even if I try, lol) I am grateful and hold dearly the fact I did not participate in Straight. But I don't negativly ~blame anyone who did.I know how scarey it was. Each individuals personal dynamic make-up is diffrent,but equally important in this world.
I did things later like , secretly Organize a High school walk out ( 750 kids, TV, newspaper etc )... for mold growing in several areas... LOL. In 10th grade I was EXPELLED from school for .. refusing to say the pledge ( because I would not say One nation under God..).. (now it's been reconized as unconstitutional)
So,rebelling against what I believe is wrong comes natrually for me. That is what kept me from complying. Don't get me wrong! Non compliance has been a harsh lesson in my life. I don't ever seem to choose the path of least resistance. I can't help but be this way, There is no other choice for me. Apparently, This is the soul I choose or was given.. and These are MY lessons.
There HAS to be both compliant and Non compliant people to make this world go round. So I honor both ways of living, because they are necessary."
I think there are different types of nonconformist/rebellers. Just by reading this I could tell you are a different type of rebeller than I am. I'm sure personality differences have a lot to do with it.
My extreme compliance in straight was actually unusual for me and purly fear driven....no one was ever able to control me before straight, no one could tell me what to think, how to live, etc. which is really how I ended up in straight in the first place...my parents falsly attributed my rebelliousness to being a bad kid.
After Straight...I recovered my nonconformist self....I think I am a different type of rebeller than others though.....I never have felt the need to do many outward things to show my disagreement with the world, maybe because I am the quiet type....although I will say it showed up in how I dressed for years....if it pissed off or offended my parents or society....I wore it.
My nonconformist streak has always shown up more in the form that ----nobody can tell me what to do, Period. Nobody can tell me how to think, Period. Nobody can tell me who my friends should be, Period. stuff like that.
And you are completely right about how difficult it is walking on the road less traveled....those who refuse to follow and play along do pay a high price...I know what you mean. I have paid dearly just for doing things my own way over the years....its often in subtle ways too (IE. one by one various so called friends in law school turned on me because I refuse to accept their mentality---and because I will disagree, because I wouldnt adopt their views, etc. I made enemies in law school just because I insist on being myself...)
And sometimes my refusal to accept mainstream thinking has led others to label me as one who "thinks outside the box." I've run into a few lawyers who actually respect that about me (suprisingly)...but they dont see it for what it really is...I just have my own ideas...my nonconformist streak...etc. ::rainbow::
Oh and Frod...Thanks...I hope you are right...I want to be a good lawyer. (less than a year to go).