John were you court ordered?

I was a 13 year old kid when i was hog tied and dragged into that place by many bigger persons then myself, many such as 3 heavy weighted women and uncles too, including i believe they even had my grandmother at that scene, too bad when you all used some stupid rug to roll me in and then tie some stupid rope i was not suffocated, maybe then they would have closed that sick brainwashing bull shit of a place up, my life, to save all others, for the sake of others, would have been better, why because if i suffered like i did i can not imagine how everyone else suffered, For one, i was asked did i do drugs, i said no, to this day and i am 49 ( soon to be 50 ) i have not done drugs, i remember even telling libby i never did drugs only to be laughed at and walked away from. No drug testing was ever done on me, nothing, i had never been in jail for ever doing anything bad not one time, i was only 13, i was on 2 swimming teams and a diving team, you idiots took me out of school, i never went back for fear of what anyone thought of me, i did not know if i talked to anyone what would happen so i split, you used me to fish my brother and sister in that place, they hated me because of that, they thought i set them up, so many things i went through for what, and what the hec was letting a 13 year old smoking cigarettes going to save?

You all every last one of you should not only rot in hell, but you should have to pay back anyone who went through such bullshit in that place, for one i was a serious vegatarian, your sugar water and crappy sandwiches made me lose way too much weight, i was already some skinny kid, i didnt need shitty food to eat i needed nourishment, any clown can tell you sugar is bad for you. But i am sure thats not what you and miss libby and art and who ever drank, but then you are the staff members right. I really wish someone would tell me why and how all got away with such hideous bullshit, oh and my oldcomer, she ended up getting fucked up after she got home, kept me up late, chopped off my hair using a razor blade, yea and i did get spit on and i did get pushed around and kicked, all are true statements which i so wish i could make all you stand up in court and have to listen to, would not just be me telling courts, be plenty out there like me. I just want to know how much money did you people take from everyone and piss away, while people were holding on to their souls by the end of a string, libby looked as if she partyed herself nightly, all those nice jeans and heels she waddled in, did you all think at all back then, i mean come on you all had to think that sometime in future someone was going to tell all sooner are later. If my spelling is bad, thank yourselves, as i really did run away from the seed and had to stay away from school because i was not going to ever go back to that place. You put me in danger being around court ordered drug addicts as your selves were, a scam is all this place was for fools to make a profit off of. I saw art maybe once twice in that place, must be nice having a businness that you literally do not even have anything to do with, but get funds, and major funds too, millions in funds, so your life was so fucked up that it made you feel like a king i bet, yelling at kids all day long, wow, how lame is that, did you all ever think that maybe just maybe if you really took in people on their own free will that maybe that place would or could have helped some, instead of stealing lying and forcing them to say crap that was not true, you know what i believe in, love and honesty and helping your neighbor and i believe in keeping my soul, i was lucky because my soul was never taken away from me that crazy time in my life, shame on you for letting parents that have too many kids believe that they should take and stick them in some fucked up program, that only benifitted, the staff, and who ever else made a profit. I live with myself daily, and i have always loved myself, i saw in that place things a young girl should never have witnessed, those old comers you so rave about well both got high as a kite when they got home, and guess what i never even seen drugs, until i was in that place, i have been around people who well got high and they never forced me to do anything i never wanted to do, i just never wanted to do drugs, i guess it bothers many who did not do drugs and had to go along with your dumb crap to get out of that place, my sister and brother both a few years older then me got stuck there longer then me, we all got stared over, some game , the way i look at what you all were doing is feeding each other, art got the money and power, you got to be free from jail, along with debbie, and art the black dude ect... you all licked his ass, and you got the most freedom you could get from a court system, but all forget to well talk about that, i may have been 13, but i was no dumb kid , i remember everything, i really will be writing more about this, i had missed out alot because of that place, you stole something that you dont care about, but guess what i do care, care more then all you put in that blimp hanger could ever have cared, funny thing is i know alot about you, and i am so thrilled you know nothing about me, i will tell you this i am more successful then any of you idots ever lied being about, i have more respect for the bums under the ramps in miami, i trust in them more then i would anyone from that place you called the seed. Heres my song to you john, THE SEED INDEED IS NOT WHAT I NEED< I NEVER DID JUNK NOR PILLS NOR WEED> wish i had a program where i could do what you did to all in that horrible place, ( all meaning i wish shoe was put on other foot turn shit around have you go through what you put many through) i would so love having you sit next to the filth i would bring next to you, crack heads, prostitutes, you name it, you jeapordized many in there, many young girls who had no problem what so ever, hope you enjoyed using me as bait back then, i was the little redhead who bite all you assholes when i had the chance. Peace! Oh, Susan be my real name too. I bet you, you would not meet in person today so i could spit in your face. I mean yours meaning all your staff and art and libby, not just directed to you all you unforgiven idiots. I will be back to make sure many know what i went through. How many do you all think you hurt back then, do any of you really care if you hurt anyone?
