Another grateful Dead song: "He's Gone, ... and nothin's gonna bring him back."
That wasn't even my point but the subtleness of your point is sharp and painful.
Actually, now that i have to think about it i remember; i did run into him one time after we were both out of straight. i saw him in the parking lot of my high school one day. we didn 't really talk and i thought he might have felt hostile toward me. You know all the awkwardness involved in the whole cult/group thing. There were times when i was in there that i had become my enemy. i was beaten and defeated over time by a systematic seige of my mind. i was a slave.
One of the reasons i am even on this board is to find old friends. It was a weird cult and strange the way people would come and go.
i used to imagine that one day i would dissapear, that some how they would get sick of me and cut me loose but, or one or the other of my folks would come to their senses but that didn't happen. Instead staff brought in my folks for a withdraw conference.(hold on let me hit my 40oz. and reflect for a few ...
... oh yeah, so there i was bein' led into a withdraw conference with exec. staff and my mom and dad.It was after i had been in the program for maybe a year or so and i had had plenty of time to study the dynamics and psychology of the mind prison cult. You know i had played all my cards by then; lied, played along, copped out off 1st phase on day 64, lied played along copped out off 3rd phase, got brought back, been on all the consequences so when i went into the conference i went in there and said a bunch of righteous shit about straight bein' some kind of a political mind prison and was very focused on my argument. i was right on, nailin' it so bad that staff kept removin' me from the room and takin' me back to group and then offering psychological coaching to my parents. Its like i was being held against my will in a secret prison, right in the middle of the all American suburb, right outside of the so-called capitol of the free world :smokin:, and not even given the right to defend myself fairly. 3 times i was removed from the conference and taken back to sit in group. Every time i got sat back in group i thought i was done but i was surprised to see the 4th or 5th phaser comin' to grab me and take me back for more talk and bullshit,lies and deception. My parents must have been hearin' what i was sayin' the way the conference went like some kind of a political treaty conference between opposing blocks.
In the end things didn't go my way and my folks turned their backs on me; fed me into the belly of the Babylon vampire system. i told them i would kill them in loud and emotional tones. i told them i would die in the electric chair .
Where are all the fighters now.
"It is not those who can inflict the most, but those who can suffer the most who will conquer" -Terence Mac Swiney,Lord mayor of Cork(1879-1920)who died in an English prison(Brixton jail) on Irish soil, on Oct. 24,1920.after 73 day hunger strike protesting English occupation of Ireland . PEACE.
Fuck all authority. God is in you. You are creation. Fuck a bunch of insecure adults who fear the truth of a child. Fuck straight.
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-- starry-eyed pirate
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If you would have justice in this world, then begin to see that a human being is not a means to some end. People are not commodities. When human beings are just to one another government becomes obsolete and real freedom is born; SPIRITUAL ANARCHY.[ This Message was edited by: starry-eyed pirate on 2005-06-15 16:43 ]