No not at all. When I left I had no friends. I had to learn to not talk about it either, because I'd get so pissed, and it would sound so weird to people who never have been through it. You have to keep in mind, your teenage years have been spent in a VERY different way than most of your peers. You will have a very different perspective than most people you meet, I can assure you of that.
The more time you spend outside the program the easier it will get. I suggest trying to put up with your mom until you are 18, but don't ever let her send you back. Once you turn 18 I would get a job and either go to community college or university and move out. Getting away from my family was the best thing I ever did, and suddenly my life seemed more normal. I didn't realize that was the issue until after I was gone.
One more thing: I'd be cautious of being friends only with graduates, and starting a serious relationship with someone you met in the program. Youve been restricted to knowing only a handful of people for a very long time... once you feel comfortable I'd start cultivating new friendships, and romances with people that are from outside hte program.
Anyways, this is only my 2 cents. Ive been out of the program for 4 years now. [took my exit plan] good luck
