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Certainly choosing to be a victim is not the most healthly response to the Seed. But I am not so sure it's really choosing to be a victim. Choosing being the operatie word there. Let me explain what I mean.
I think many people who were put in the seed by well-meaning parents or courts - maybe they don't have the same outlook on the results because they are in fact, still on some emotional or maturity level stuck way back there in the past. I know on some levels that's where I am.
Real addicts who embraced the teachings probably did benefit and their lives were made richer and better by the experience of separating themselves from the evil in the outside world.
But there were many, many others who did not have any physical addictions and did not benefit from that separation. For them is was a very different traumatic experience that stunted growth rather than fostered it. I am one of those.
Traumatic experiences can lock a person into a particular mindset, and sometimes can make a person mentally ill and unable to deal with the real demands of life. And, like me, if the person was unforutnate enough to not be an addict when they were put in there, then it can have really negative effects on psychological development and maturity.
To really simplify it - if a person did not have some form of cancer, even if cancer was believed by everyone to be a theart to society (like drugs were believed to be a systemic problem in our society) - would there be any benefit to forcing chemotherapy or radiation treatments on that person? Would it prevent cancer or would it make the person sick?
Does rehabilitation of a non-existent problem, even when done with the best intentions, mean that the medicine won't hurt?
I have seen that in myself - being stuck and reacting to severe conditions and important life decisions with the very limited perspective of a teenager trying to muddle through life under the mistaken belief that I am a sick person. I say this to explain why I started this thread in the first place - because of my reaction to the whole GET OVER IT comment on another thread.
Yes, it angers me when people say that - it angers me on many levels. I really don't want my ass kicked by strangers and anons for not being a fully evolved person on every level - and perhaps that just more of my persecuted teen perspective leaking through. I am not above reacting to what I perceive as negative stimulus.
I think we all have a purpose in life, a journey to make, and it's quite obvious we all aren't in the same place at the same time. Personally, I think it's a good thing - that's why I posed the question in the first place - to get some concrete, "how to" information. It's so much easier to move forward when you have some kind of road maps.
Someday I will be "over it" and I will be absolutely relieved to know in my heart that I got over it. With luck and perseverence and forgivness and who knows what else, I will be there eventually.
Respectfully,
Stripe
