K of BC 1986-87

[Anonymous]

Hello to all of you.  I just found this site!!  Holy Crap!!  I remember so very many of you.  I don't know if anyone remembers me -- I wasn't really very memorable I suppose.  I was there from 86-87 aka Kim G*lm*r*.  It feels like that portion of my life was like 90 years ago.  I guess I try so very hard to block it out.  I am married going on 7 yrs. and have three beautiful children -- yep, three of them!

I really hit rock bottom after I left, then I met my husband and straightened my act out.  I've been with him for 14 years now.  I was so bitter about losing all that time in my life -- senior year in HS, prom, graduation.  All the good times gone. But good old Cindy K. used to say "Kim G., how do you feel, today is your senior prom"  Yeah thanks . . . love ya Cindy!!

Whatever, it's all dust in the wind now.

I think my favorite host home was Sue Sc**rr*'s.  Probably because she didn't treat me like shit.  I really liked her mom and dad. She didn't ration our honey.

How many of you still eat liverwurst with ketchup, mustard and a spork?

I still have a scar on my left hand of an upside down cross I carved with a piece of blue chair.

I still eat shredded wheat with honey!!  Eeesh!  Once in a while I get the urge to throw some peanut butter on a slice of apple.

I think I still have "blue chair spread".

Oooooo, when I was rebellious, I used to "rock out in my head" and I tried to click with the guys side, but I was so hideous looking that no one paid attention to me!!

I live in NJ a few blocks away from Tracy Br**n's parents.  I'm not sure where the other story came from, but she really died of liver failure due to Hepatitis.  She got that by doing heroin and the whole sharing needles thing. Her parents posted her obituary after her funeral.  I see her mom ALL the time and she won't even LOOK at me.  I did see Tracy a few times after the program, she wasn't doing so hot.  So sad.  I knew her for a long time before Kids,too.

Well, I am glad to see that so many are doing so well.  I wish everyone the best.  If anyone wants to e-mail me I am at mikimr@optonline.net.

 :em:

[Anonymous]

Blond hair right? I remember you. I'd rather stay anon. right now though.

Thanks for clearing up the myth about Tracy. I was wondering what really happened and so sad to hear she had passed away. Her house was one of my favorite Host Homes. She and her parents were always so nice to me. I stayed at Sue's too. I haven't seen Sue S. in years. We were good friends for a few years after getting out of Kids. Our boyfriends at the time were best friends. I wonder how she's doing now.

Aside from an occassional sliced apple with peanut butter my diet does not consist of anything resembling what we ate in Kids. I do admit a phase of shredded wheat with honey years ago.

[Anonymous]

hey kim-

when and where did tracy pass? is her obituary still online? thanks in advance.

[tenacious1]

On 2004-03-07 23:03:00, Anonymous wrote:

 
Oooooo, when I was rebellious, I used to "rock out in my head" and I tried to click with the guys side, but I was so hideous looking that no one paid attention to me!!


thats funny! welcome kim. my name is kevin brogan. i was there from 85-86 with my brother sean. we were pulled in june of 86. what month did you come in :question:

[Anonymous]

I believe it was 4 years ago or so.  I tried to find it online for you but they only go as far back as 2003, sorry.  I remember reading it in disbelief.

[Anonymous]

On 2004-03-08 08:12:00, tenacious1 wrote:

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On 2004-03-07 23:03:00, Anonymous wrote:


 
Oooooo, when I was rebellious, I used to "rock out in my head" and I tried to click with the guys side, but I was so hideous looking that no one paid attention to me!!




thats funny! welcome kim. my name is kevin brogan. i was there from 85-86 with my brother sean. we were pulled in june of 86. what month did you come in :question:

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Hi!  I was dragged in during September 96 and ran like hell during my second day of third phase in September 97.  Just missed you I guess.

[Anonymous]

On 2004-03-08 06:23:00, Anonymous wrote:

"Blond hair right? I remember you. I'd rather stay anon. right now though.

Yep, blonde hair that used to be long till they chopped the crap out of it and slicked it back in those pretty barettes!!!  You know cause I "felt good off my hair" and all!!  I think Tracy, Sue S., Katie R. Carol B., and Sue B. (that I remember right now) were about the only ones who managed to look decent.

SO many memories came rushing back to me by reading some of these posts.

Kim   :em:

[Anonymous]

Hi!  I was dragged in during September 96 and ran like hell during my second day of third phase in September 97.  Just missed you I guess.

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I came in Sept. 96 and ran on second phase Sept 97.  I see we were in the same class.

[Anonymous]

hi kim i remember you i was there 85-88 i ran from school when i was on third phase but most of my time there was rebellious we were so brainwashed i still have scars on my arm from scraping my nails in them people ask if i was in a fire when they notice it of course i say its too long a story to avoid more questions do you remember me ilene h*d*s

[Anonymous]

I vividly remember getting the underwear my parents bought and dropped off at the building when I first got there.  Hugging my thighs and up to my chest. Granny Panties!

Who was it that hacked our hair? I think a hostmom did mine but I don't have any memory of who it was.  More humiliation that's all it was. What was with those damn barretts? I tried to open a screw in the window in the middle of the night at a hosthome that was under construction because the window actually led to the downstairs of the house. I had to step over Britta who was sleeping in front of it. Useless, I tell you. The damn Barrett didn't even budge the screw. Oh yea! It was Denise and Jeanette D*n*gh**'s house in Ridgewood.

[Anonymous]

Holy crap!  Ilene!!!  How could I forget you?!  I remember your arms -- they were such a mess.  I think you used to bite your nails into points right?  I was always scared to restrain you for fear you would bite me -- no offense or anything!  I was rebellious for a while too. I just couldn't deal with everything!  It was like a bad nightmare being there.  I hope all is well with you these days.


I know . . . those freakin' BRIEFS that we had to wear.  I remember being so pissed at my mom when my first clothes came in the bag -- an awful sweater with mint green and ivory stripes and mint green COURDOROY pants that were 3 sizes too big and floods -- cause you know I "felt good"  off of tight pants and all!!  I was miffed.  And those barretts, they took them away when you were really rebellious.  I think I remember Tim's mom was one of the hairdressers (if you will).

I also remember humiliating stuff like being scared to ask for another meatball at a host home then getting up the gumption, asking for it, and the oldcomer saying "do you think you deserve that meatball?"  then I would sit there overanalyzing the entire situation to try and remember if I did anything to be guilty for and maybe I did and I don't deserve the meatball and well maybe I didn't and yes dammit, I did deserve the freakin' meatball.  CrAzYY!!

I haven't been able to talk to anyone about the program in 13 years.  I've stuffed it all inside -- no one who wasn't there could possibly imagine what went on and if you did tell someone, they'd think you were nuts or something.

[Anonymous]

Funny. I think I remember the clothes you mentioned mint green striped sweater.

Yep. I think it was Tim's mom who cut my hair.

When I was rebellious there was a phase when I had to ask to take EACH and EVERY bite of food in the following manner: "May I sponge and leech this pea from you." "May I sponge and leech this bite of bread from you"
Then it got worse: "May I sponge and leech this water from you (when I was showering)." "May I pick up my toothbrush." "May I sponge and leech this toothpaste from you." "May I sponge and leech this water to rinse my mouth from you."....

When I refused Tammy A. made me stand naked in her room for what seemed like an eternity. On principle, I was naked and felt I didn't need to ask to put on some clothes. I suppose she felt differently. Different oldcomers definately took things to an extreme.

Anyone on the girls side will know who I am if they remember how I had to sit on the floor of the car to and from the building each day. If I refused they would just sit on my head and shove me onto the car floor. Anyone remember that? They were hiding me from my "druggie relatives."

Well I know I threw a few good punches myself, but damn Illene you sure ripped the hair from my head. I think I got bitten a few times too.

I came out with bald spots, bruised and scarred. Crazy shit! Sort of funny looking back on it all.

[Cindy]

Hey sorry about that Kim.  I don't even remember, maybe it was because I was going to the prom, but I think you were older than me. Not sure, I graduated from Hills in 89.

The Tracey issue still has me very upset.  I miss her a lot.  Did you hear about David Suchar.  Another Wayne tragedy.

Well, glad to hear you're doing well.  
all the best.
C.

[Anonymous]

KIM--Its me, Cyndi B (yes, its still B) I was putzing around one night on the internet looking into cult things--time on my hands, and wandered onto this website--somehow. IT freaked me out seeing it, and i was wondering if id see anything from you on it.  YOU posted your last message about 2 months ago, so im not sure if youll see this one. I was freaking out last night, explaining the whole "KIDS" thing that happened with you, and how you disappeared for all that time, I had missed you so much and was wondering "what the hell" to my boyfriend (yep---still the same one-weve been together 10 years). I know Ive sort of tried to reconnect with you, from time to time--but our lives are so different and so are we. High school was a looong time ago . MY mom (same schizoid old Pat) is worse than ever--clinically realllly bad. I allowed that to control my life for a while. I even gained 60 lbs! Ive since lost it and feel GREAT. THIS website---kinda....made me understand a little more...why things got so muddled after you left that KIDS crap. I cant even imagine all of this really frightening SHIT you went thru-now I really "get it", and again---I guess im sorry there wasnt much I could do for you---or--I was so selfish in my early 20's and wasnt as good of a friend.  What I guess im trying to say is im glad youve found peace, and even tho your personal path (3 kids--wow!) is different from mine---what a frigging hell hole!!! Im glad we are making our own lives as good as they can be. It hurt so much to be referred to as a druggie! Im turning 35 in a few months, still have never smoked pot !!!!!!!!! Anyway---I didnt want to be preseumptive and email you directly....out of the blue. Email back, if youd like....