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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / People from St. Pete program
« on: April 28, 2006, 01:05:00 AM »
Does anyone remember any of these people from St. Pete around 1985?  or know what has happened to them?
Letha Yost (staff)
Jennifer(?) Campbell (from Michigan...I think I saw her later in a magazine...she won a bikini contest for whichever beer it is that does bikini contests every year...Budweiser maybe?)
Tina ? (w/ straight brownish long hair...lived in an apt. w/ her mom)
Kay Irwin(?) (had brownish hair, had a brother also in the program)
Michele Embry
Mark (or Steve?) Mead (dark hair, dark tan)
or anyone else from St. Pete around 1985?
I remember we had a car wash when I was on 4th or 5th phase and someone called and complained about their car (or cars) not being clean and us goofing off and they demoted every one of us...knocked us all down a phase.  

And this person was not there in 1985, she was in St. Pete much earlier and then moved to the Atlanta program when it was formed and was on Jr. staff when her dad went to work at St. Pete around 1982 or 1983.....Peggy Oliver.  Does anyone know anything about her?  or even her father William (Bill) Oliver?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / A New Topic
« on: January 18, 2003, 12:54:00 PM »
I was looking through a list of drug treatment centers on the internet last night and I started to feel sick....especially when thinking of someone I knew that I recently found out is back on drugs/shooting up.
Over the Christmas holidays my younger brother told me he is shooting up.....and I felt that same sick feeling.
As far back as I can remember, whenever I hear of someone hooked, I get this empty, lonely, cold, SICK feeling deep in my gut.
I think its because I don't know the answers.  I don't know why some people get hooked & can't quit and others can.  I don't know why I was so rebellious and drank and got into trouble as a teen.....and why I used so many drugs after I left Straight.  I know many obvious reasons why I did some of those things (I think there are very few people who DIDN'T use drugs at some point after having been in Straight!); but I don't know what started it all for me and I don't know exactly what stopped it all for me.  My parents are good, well meaning people and I've always known they loved me.  I wasn't spoiled with a lot of riches....we didn't have any material wealth.  I wasn't abused.  I don't know exactly WHAT made me f*&#ed up.  
People have said to me before that I could help others using drugs, but at the thought of that I feel almost dead inside or something.....I just feel nothing....I'm at a total loss.  I can't explain it, I don't know why it happens, I don't know why some stop & others don't, I don't know what the answer is to any of it. It's been 20 years now that I've pondered this.
I've never mentioned it to anyone.  I've just always felt the sickness and wondered to myself.  I knew it would be pointless until now.  There's never been anyone that would even remotely understand what I'm talking about.
I didn't know what to say to my brother or what to offer him.  So I said nothing.  (What can I say?  What can I do?)  I just stood there and listened.  

I'm grateful to all of you for having these boards set up & posting on them.  I wish I had found them sooner.  (I guess we all do/will find them when its time for us.)

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