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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Disassociation
« on: May 30, 2006, 12:44:00 PM »
I was in for less than a year. If cutting, pulling hair out, starving and hitting myself in the head drawing blood was called moving on, I guess one could say I moved on. I wouldn't say that. I would say that I took off from where Straight left off.
A man can sexually molest his daughter in less than an hour. If it never happens again he has still shaped a vital part of her that has forever changed who she is and how she interprets the world. It doesn't take repeated episodes or a longer duration to be necessarily more traumatic.
One could even make the argument that had I been there for 5 years my assimilation would have *taken* "better" and less trauma would have been had...as my reality would have definitely had time to mold and shift within that time frame. I would never purpose to say such a thing however...though, you see, the argument could be made. Therefore, time is irrelevent.
17 years later i am just now beginning to get to the root causes and conditions of what Straight reinforced in me. How long a person was in an abusive situation isn't as important as how the person interpreted the abuse.
A man can sexually molest his daughter in less than an hour. If it never happens again he has still shaped a vital part of her that has forever changed who she is and how she interprets the world. It doesn't take repeated episodes or a longer duration to be necessarily more traumatic.
One could even make the argument that had I been there for 5 years my assimilation would have *taken* "better" and less trauma would have been had...as my reality would have definitely had time to mold and shift within that time frame. I would never purpose to say such a thing however...though, you see, the argument could be made. Therefore, time is irrelevent.
17 years later i am just now beginning to get to the root causes and conditions of what Straight reinforced in me. How long a person was in an abusive situation isn't as important as how the person interpreted the abuse.