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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anybody remember Sunday?
« on: May 24, 2002, 03:08:00 PM »
I was reading about having fire drills and it got me thinking about how everyones wishes almost came true one weekend.  It was one of thoses out of town weekends when you stay with a host home for those parents that lived a few hours away.  Anyway a misbehavior copped out previous to this.  Well he was gone for a couple of weeks and while he was away and we were out of town he got on the roof of the warehouse and dropped oily rags in the ceiling on one side and lit them on fire.  Some of the industrial ceiling tiles caught on fire and dropped onto the carpet.  When we get back there was some fire damage, but not enough to keep Straight closed.  I remember him getting caught a little while later by the cops and brought back to Straight, thats when we found out for sure that it was him.  That guy had guts, I just wished that his plan would have worked out.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / something fun (I hope): then and now
« on: May 09, 2002, 10:37:00 AM »
I was in Orlando Straight from march/april 1990 to december 1991.  A total of 20 months.
I myself just joined this forum about a week and a half ago.  I am happy to have found people that can understand where I am coming from.  It makes it easier for me to work through the issues I need to because there is a support group there for me.  Write me an email if you ever want to talk about anything. Hope my view helped about letting resentment go.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / something fun (I hope): then and now
« on: May 08, 2002, 06:12:00 PM »
It has been over 10 years since I have been in Straight and no matter how many times I have tried to make myself believe that I have let all the hurt, betrayal, and anger go, it still comes back to haunt me.  From my own experiences I would say NO, you can not totally forgive your parents.  However if a person is in a place in their life where forgiveness is truely for themselves then there may be a possibility.  In my case I cant forgive because they never tried to understand the pain and hurt I felt, nor did they seem to care what there actions did to me in the long term.  I wish you luck on your journey and hope you can come to peace with whatever happens or with whatever you feel.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / something fun (I hope): then and now
« on: May 07, 2002, 09:58:00 AM »
Jeremy, then
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* height: about 5'4" to 5'6"(im guessing)
* weight: 120 lbs. when I went in, 125 when I got out (im guessing)
* image: surfer looking skateboarder with a huge hairsprayed wave in my hair to a conservative feathered look
* favorite color: black
* favorite kind of music: heavy metal
* favorite band/artist: Metallica,guns n roses,motley crue
* favorite food: beef stroganof
* dream car: porsche
* what I wanted to be when I grew up: artist
* what I thought of my parents: Fucking idiots, I fucking hate them.

Jeremy, now
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* height: about 5'9" to 5'10"
* weight: 150
* image: short hair goat without the tee and long sideburns.  I actually turned out descent looking:)
* favorite color: black
* favorite kind of music: industrial, alternative
* favorite band/artist: nine inch nails,tool, tori amos, system of a down
* favorite food: beef stroganof
* dream car: Acura NSX
* what I want to be when I grow up: writer/artist and rich
* what I think of my parents: resentful and bitter, dont talk to them that much

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Christmas at Straight Inc.
« on: May 02, 2002, 07:15:00 PM »
I was not on 1st phase the whole time I was in straight.  I actually made it to 5th phase but of course I got set back because my conscience was bothering me about something I never did.  So about the beginning of december I started to misbehave(not really though I just gave up) anyway I finally got pulled 5 days before christmas.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anybody remember Sunday?
« on: May 02, 2002, 03:37:00 PM »
Yeah those long ass rides out of town sucked.  By the way I am not Jennifer, my name is Jeremy.  When I was on fifth phase I would let people go to the bathroom before we all left, unless you had the same person ask every 30 minutes, which usually were the misbehaviors.  Our counselors would threaten to punish us with writing these essays anywhere from 500 words to 10,000 words just because we weren't quiet enough. If you didn't get them done by the time you came back in then they would double the amount each day.  That was one of the worst punishments because you couldn't sleep all night sometimes just to get them done.  Did they do that at the other straights to you guys?

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anybody remember Sunday?
« on: May 01, 2002, 08:41:00 PM »
I dont know about anywhere else, but in Orlando every other weekend we went to long distance host homes, like for instance I lived in Jacksonville until my mother moved down to orlando.  Anyways so every other weekend we stayed in other cities and mostly just ate a bunch of junk food, played games, talked about feelings, etc.  Couldn't do much besides that though unless you were on a higher phase and didnt have to many 1st phasers, then you could go outside, whoopie.

On the other weekends I know we had sundays off, and I cant remember if we had to come in on saturdays for like 6 hours or so, but I believe so.  Pretty much there wasn't much to do.  Someone correct me if I am wrong, its kinda hard to remember.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Dealing with Straight consequences, also where are Orlando s
« on: May 01, 2002, 02:42:00 PM »
Doesn't ring a bell, but that is not surprising either I only remember a few names from there and hardly any women because of course we were not as close to them.  Never really got to know the girls.  I was wondering if everyone had the same feeling when you pulled up to the building each morning.  I remember feeling anxiety, fear, and depression every single damn day.  Never knowing what to expect(meaning if you were going to get confronted that day or not)  God I hated that feeling.  Not a good way to start off each day.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Dealing with Straight consequences, also where are Orlando s
« on: May 01, 2002, 01:19:00 PM »
Thanks for the support.  I really do appreciate it.  Being in there for 20 months and going all the way up to 5th phase then being sent back down to 1st phase really bothers me also.  Along with that I get pissed thinking about how much it screwed up my education.  You know how you get to go to school on 3rd phase and after, well in our program we would be restricted so often that once I got out of Straight, I still hadn't passed the 9th grade.  I was finally pulled 5 days before christmas(the best present ever)and I was 16 years old.  I finally said screw it and when I moved out to arizona I got my GED and started going to a community college right after.  I get really angry/upset when I think about it because I was not able to be a normal kid since the age of 14.  Im just venting right now and I'm sure you all feel the same but I wish I could recapture what was lost.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Dealing with Straight consequences, also where are Orlando s
« on: April 30, 2002, 02:08:00 PM »
I was in Straight Orlando for 20 months, from march/april of 1990 to december 20 1991.  I just recently talked to someone who had a brother and sister in the Kids program in Jersey.  Talking to her brought up feelings and nightmares I had supressed for so many years.  I decided to talk to my counselor about it all, but it still feels like there is noone to relate to.  It feels like there is noone that will understand me, so I decided to see what was available ion the net.  All the hurt, pain, sadness is revisiting me because of the emotional and physical abuse I endured.  I feeel like many of you will understand where I am coming from and could be a good support for me.  I want revenge on the people that did these things to me, but i dont know if that is even possible.  I also am terrified for the ones who are in these sort of "treatment" centers right now.  Also if anyone is out there that was in the orlando straight, i would like to hear from you.  I was pulled from the program and soon after moved to Arizona, so I did not keep in contact with anyone.  If Dax or George are out there, hope you guys are ok and would like to hear from you.

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