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To brian-
Cedu definitly taught us that some people were better than others. Basically that cedu people were better than others, but that was a real negitive when a cedu person who believes this theory gets out into the real world; Because it is a bunch of bullshit. The higher you are the harder you fall. I got over that "I feel emotionally knowledgeable and  superior" thing a while ago. But we all have egos, it would suck without one.
 My personal experience with losing touch with my friends from cedu was a need to move on.  Also, i had some really phychotic friends who went ballistic after they got out, it was impossible to be their friend anymore.

Antigen-
 I read a few "Moral inventory posts". They were really interesting. I see definite similaritlies in my journal entries and the posts you suggested I read. At cedu we were not required to write a journal unless we were on restriction. But i wrote in one on and off. journals from a restriction table are read by staff and students. thoughts were definitly censored in those. But eventually I really began to believe in the program, and the censoring went a different way. It makes me feel a little ill. I can see were I  began to think that I was trash and needed to be saved by this all knowing program. I censored the fact that I was unhappy. I wrote what I thought sounded like a good wholesome person, reading it now, it sounds really fucked up. I lost touch with reality. Enough so that they used me at parent confrences to help sell their school. that is a whole other thing that I won't go into right now. Anyway, I plan on reading the "moral posts" in more depth and am also interested in reading more about the Seed/straight program in general. Thanks for showing me the posts.

I just found an old journal I kept while I was at cedu. I totally forgot i had it. through the months, the progression to brainwashed is really visable. No wonder I had a hard time when I got out. I have a couple weeks until I go back to college, and i can't wait. It feels like nothing ever changed during the summer time. I have absolutly no friends in this place, because of the way I was when I left cedu.

I guess I knew that everyone had that experience when they got out. But I felt like my other CEDU friends were handling it better than I was. I hate admitting it. I still feel a little ostracized by society. I know this is a direct result of what we are talking about. i wonder if it will ever change. But in reality, I don't think I can ever forget what assholes people can be. Both in and out of CEDU.